Friday, September 27, 2013

Been a while....

I have sat down several times to write, and ended up deleting it all. 

I guess I feel like I say the same things over and over right now.  And I guess I do.

We are still in a very hard place at the moment, but God continues to reveal Himself as forever faithful.  I have learned more about trusting God in all things, than I ever have.  Especially in my finances.  Tithing when you can't see how you are going to make a house payment or a power bill is really hard.  But through all of this, I have tithed.  And I will say God has been good to us, and this has usually come through the hands of others who have just listened to His voice.

It has been a humbling experience.  I do not like to ask for help.  I do not like to accept help, even if I didn't ask.  I have never been on this side of the fence, and it is really, really HARD!  I will be brutally honest.... I like to have control of my life and what happens in it.  The fact is.... I don't, and never really did.  God has complete control.  The only thing I can control, is releasing my life to Him and His plan.  Forty something years... and this is still the hardest thing in the world. 

One day at a time, one step at a time, and I continue to grow... and release my life into the Hands of my Father, who wants to give me good things.... whatever that may look like.

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