What Do I Need To Learn...

from this Lord?  I've been perfectly and happily healthy for 40 years.  And now... when my life is full of kids, family, church, friends, school........... now, I fall apart.  What do I need to learn here?

This has been my question for the last 3 weeks.  Apparently my body is arguing with itself on how it should work.  My "autonomic" system is all out of whack and it is wreaking havoc on my life.

I do not sit still well.  I like to be busy.  I like to do things with my husband, kids, homeschool, friends, etc... sitting still and doing nothing is not in my vocabulary most of the time.  So God, why now?

I do not fully understand what is happening, the diagnosis, etc... but I'm trying to find answers.  But I know my God always has a plan.  I know He loves me and knows every part of my life and body.  I know that somewhere in this sudden change of my life... He is going to teach me something.

Lord, may I be faithful to you in this season.  I know that seasons come and seasons go, and for this moment... I will honor you with my praise.  Because I know YOU will work all things for my good... above and beyond all I could ever imagine. Amen.

God knows...

It seems our family continually walks through storms of some type.  A new one has just come into focus and I am at a loss.  I know that my God is faithful.  I know that He has written my story.  I know that I am a child of God and that He knows everything going on in my life and the life of my family.  And I cling to that.

However, there are those moments where fear and dread creep in.  Today is one of those days.  The unknown of what is happening overtakes me.  And waiting on appointments to find out more... well that is just painful!

I remember that my God knows.  He sees each tear that falls.  He is my maker.  There is nothing surprising for Him.  He knows my heart and holds it in His hands.  Today... I'm choosing to remind myself of that.. moment by moment.