God Me and A Cup of Coffee

There is a stirring...

2012-01-31T11:19:00.000-08:00

There is a stirring in my soul. A deep desire yearning to find fulfillment. It's as though I've been in a desert, dry and parched, longing for a cold drink of water. I'm desperate.

I want to be deeper drawn into the lap of my Savior. I don't want to just sit at His feet... I want to be deep in His embrace. I want every word spoken to hang deeply over me like a dense fog. I want to feel the tangible presence of my Daddy God.

I long for a relationship with Him as I have never known. God, my Dad, is drawing this daughter into a place unknown. He has a plan for me that I have not even begun to walk into.

The feeling of, my time has past, is........ past. I know that there is something more, something greater, something powerful I am to do. It may be for my husband. It may be for my children. It may be for my church, friends, community........ I do not know exactly what or where or when... but I know I am preparing myself. I am finding my ROAR (Lioness Arising)... so that when my path is revealed, I am ready and prepared to rise.

God, you made me a strong woman. Forgive me for trying to fit myself into a "meeker and milder" role. Yes, I am gentle, I am soft, I am feminine, but you gave me STRENGTH for a purpose. Show me that purpose and allow me to rise up!

In my weakness..

2012-01-27T13:03:00.000-08:00

“My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” 2 Cor 12:9 (portion of verse)

Our state was once again hit with devastating tornado's this week. This time, it was much closer to home.

A sweet friend of mine, lost her home. In fact there were many homes in her neighborhood that lost everything. I was able to go volunteer one day, and when I began walking down the street, the sight almost took my breath away.

My friend, her husband and two daughters were spared with just a few minor injuries. If you could see her house, you would wonder how. I know that angels were hovering in the midst of the storm. I have no doubt, that they were shielded by the power of the Almighty.

But still, their home and so much of what they possessed was just wiped away. The morning after the storm, her first Facebook post of the day was a lighthearted joke. The same the next day. When I saw her and as I've spoken with her, the grace and beauty that she has displayed through this ordeal has amazed me. She has a peace that only comes by the presence and power of the Holy Spirit.

I couldn't even begin to think of how many people she may have come in contact with this week. And I am sure that of that great number, many do not know the Lord. But what my friend has in her heart, she has lived outwardly and people have been watching.

I wonder how many lives will be forever changed because of meeting Clara? I wonder who will stop and think, when their next "storm" comes, of the words she has spoken. The words of praise and glory to God, that she has professed resolutely.

There are several people in my life right now, who are going through different types of "tornado's" in their life. I wish they all had this same peace, this same grace at work in them. Some do, and for that I am so thankful. But there are a few, who only put their hope in a doctor. My prayer is that someone, much like my friend, will cross their path and share just as she has.

I will stop and think, when my next round of storms come, if His grace is being allowed to work in my weakness. He is truly all I need. He is able to do everything I can not. He is able to calm my storm and hold this child all at the same time. I hope that my life will be able to witness boldly, just as my friend has done.

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Late night...

2012-01-18T23:31:00.000-08:00

Can't sleep. Can't find peace. Feeling hurt and abandoned. Nothing I can do to change the situation.... it just "is". I am in great need of His presence..... so thankful it can always be found.

This song keeps running through my head.........

Hands reaching out
No one to hold
You've been abandoned
With no place to go
Wounded and wanting
Such desperate times
Cold bitter tears are filling your eyes

(Pre-Chorus)
Get a glimpse of Jesus
For He is right there with you
He knows just what you need

Chorus
When life gets broken
And you're in despair
He'll carry your burden
When it's too much to bear
It's down in the valley
Where He'll give you strength
And there is nothing you have lost
That He can't replace
He'll help you start all over again
When life gets broken

Verse 2
You hoped God would heal her
But she went home anyway
Now it's hard to imagine
How you'll make it through the day
Weeks turn to years
Time's passing you by
But you're still holding on
To the how's and the why's

(Pre-Chorus)
Get a glimpse of Jesus
For He is right there with you
He knows just what you need

Chorus
When life gets broken
And you're in despair
He'll carry your burden
When it's too much to bear
It's down in the valley
Where He'll give you strength
And there is nothing you have lost
That He can't replace
He'll help you start all over again
When life gets broken

Bridge
Healing waters
heal our troubled souls
Jesus, sweet Jesus
Cleanse and make us whole

Chorus
When life gets broken
And you're in despair
He'll carry your burden
When it's too much to bear
It's down in the valley
Where He'll give you strength
And there is nothing you have lost
That He can't replace
He'll help you start all over again
He'll help you start all over again
When life gets broken

Burdens

2012-01-17T11:07:00.000-08:00

Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior; Who daily bears our burdens.

Psalm 68:19

During my prayer time last night, I was reading through some of the Psalms. During this 21 days of fasting with our church, my prayers have been very specific for several of my family members.

I carry a deep and heavy burden for my brother. We grew up in church, knew what God required of us, and he believed. But now, he has been away from God for many, many years. Sometimes, I feel if prayer for him is futile. I feel like it is falling on deaf ears of God...

Yet, last night while interceding for him, this verse jumped out to remind me, that God "daily" bears the same burdens I carry. What a freedom!

I grow weary sometimes, I admit, when prayers seemingly go unanswered. Prayers that come from deep within me, you know those prayers that really do cause a "groaning". I love how Beth Moore has described those prayers... that "ugly face" prayers. But those are my deep prayers that kicks me in the gut and causes me to get on my face before God!

Sometimes it feels that I carry it alone.... but I do not. God is faithful to remind me of that in His word! I find comfort in knowing everything important to me, is important to God, and that I truly do NOT carry my burdens alone! He is a great God; full of compassion for His children and I am so thankful.

When Something Bad... Turns Amazing...

2012-01-11T19:01:00.000-08:00

On that day a great persecution broke out against the church and all except the Apostles were scattered... Those who had been scattered preached the word wherever they went. Acts 8: 1b & 4a

The church was being persecuted. Saul was up to his tricks trying to destroy and stop the ministry of the Word. There was much fear, so those who believed scattered in order to be safe.

They went out from Jerusalem, afraid, but not alone, for God's power and the presence of the Holy Spirit was with them. Wherever they went... they preached the Gospel. People were healed and their number grew even more!

Isn't it amazing when God takes a bad situation and uses it for His glory? I've seen this happen so many times in my own life. Yet we get so caught up in the "problem" we forget to see where God might be sending us in order to make a difference!

There was no way to diminish the gospel. There was no way to stop the plan of God. There was no way to silence those who have believed. Those who have seen the signs and wonders. They would share the saving grace of Jesus everywhere and anywhere they went.

There will never be a day when the enemy will stop trying to silence "the church". Because he keeps trying to win. But the church will never stop, because when those who believe are overwhelmed with persecution, problems, hurts, and fears... they still know a God who will come through. They believe in a God who will use whatever challenge we have been allowed to face for His glory.

God knew before our name was ever spoken what would happen in our life. He is not surprised by anything. God is merciful and just and amazing, in that he takes us through our turmoil just to bring us through in order to share with others.

The gospel must go forth. And God will use whatever means possible in order to reach those who do not know. We must allow Him to use our hands and feet, as well as our circumstances, in order to complete the work of reaching the lost.

Are you ready to allow God to use your circumstances to spread His love to a lost and hurting world?

Everyone...

2012-01-09T14:14:00.000-08:00

And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved. Acts 2:21

Today our church began reading through the book of Acts for part of our 21 day fast and upcoming services. Sunday was an amazing service, I can't wait to see what God has in store for His people over the next 21 days.

I love this particular verse. Because it gives HOPE! Hope that everyone can be saved.

I have several family members who I constantly pray and intercede for. Years have gone by and to my eyes, I see no change. Their life continues to become darker and my hope for them grows dim.

Have you ever interceded for a long time wondering when God would ever hear your prayers? I definitely have in these situations. It seems like nothing is happening. I grow weary at times. I feel hopeless that there will ever be a change. The decay and death that their actions bring, breaks my heart, and I know the heart of God.

Yet God's word assures me that everyone - anyone, who calls on the name of the Lord WILL be saved. There isn't any "maybe" in that verse. Nothing saying your sin is too great, or you haven't paid a high enough price yet. None of the verse gives any "Plan A, B C" that has to be followed. No, it is so simple, just call on the name of the Lord.

I've heard people say that they will come to the Lord when they "get it together". Oh my sweet friends, we do not have to wait. Just call His name. He is waiting. He takes us as we are, where we are. He loves us so unconditionally. Call His name.. the sweet name of Jesus.

Press On...

2012-01-06T07:52:00.000-08:00

...straining toward what is ahead, ¹⁴ I press on... Philippians 3: 13b-14a

I am tired today. My spirit is weary. I want to quit.

Do you have those days? Days when it seems like regardless of what you do, it isn't enough.

This is how I greeted my morning - weary and worn. Yet, I trudge on. Time to walk the dog, prepare a cup of coffee... sit down on the couch with a blanket and sink into my quiet time with God.

It's me Father. I really need to just crawl in Your lap today. There are some things happening that I just don't know what to do about. Can I just rest? I'm listening.

"Press on?" What! " Press ON.... I'm with you. I'm walking right with you step for step. Rest when you must, but keep pressing on. There is a prize, a goal, it may be beyond what you can see right now My child, but press on."

I'm so glad to know that what I see at the moment is far smaller than what God sees. It is hard at times to keep pressing, keep running for something you do not see. Days like today, with burdens I do not know how to carry are hard. In my selfishness, I'd rather just sit down and cry and have a "pitty party", but my Father said "Press on".

I love the wording of Philippians in the NIV. The word "straining" is used. One definition given for "straining" is - to exert to the uttermost. What image does that give you? My first thought was of someone weary, worn, sweaty, exhausted, almost on their "last leg"... yet still moving forward, even if it is slowly.

I find comfort in that thought today. How many times have you seen a marathon runner cross the finish line looking like they just stepped out of a salon? Never? Me either. So today, I may be slow, tired, worn, weary, frantic even... but I will take this life step by step and find the prize. I may not see it, but it's there... and I will keep pressing.

In the House

2012-01-05T07:30:00.001-08:00

Those that are planted in the house of the LORD will flourish in the courts of our God. Psalm 92:13

We are called to be planted in the house of the Lord. "Church" is not just a "good idea", it is a place each of us, as believers need to put down roots.

Now I am aware many people think "TV" church is good enough... or that a fellowship of believers isn't really necessary. However I believe that if the Word of God speaks multiple times about being in His House, then we need to give it deep consideration.

We need a support of believers. We need a safe haven. "But you don't understand...", you say. "I've been hurt." Well my friend, join the long list of those who have. But is that the only place you have been hurt? Of course not. What about at work? In your own family? In the social group you spend time with? I'm sure that somewhere along the way, you have been hurt as well. But do you throw your hands up and say "no more"? Probably not.

In Warrior Chicks I read the following: Don't just make church a place where you spend an hour on Sunday. Make it a place where you dwell. It should be a place where REAL people with REAL lives and REAL problems can find REAL help as they worship a REAL God.

This is the church I want to be a part of. Luckily, that is the place I have found. But, it took searching, praying, visiting.... direction! And even in this amazing church where I have "put down roots"... not everything is perfect. But the saying goes... no church is perfect because it is made up of imperfect people.

Yet what I have found is a like minded friends who have become my support. They have become my spiritual warriors. I have found a place of safety to be myself and allow others to see the "real me". It is my place to be rooted and God's promise is that I will flourish.

Where is your House of the Lord? Have you put down roots, or are you just a Sunday morning visitor? Find a "home", allow roots to grow, and see how you will flourish! It is God's promise!

Focusing on Forgiveness...

2012-01-04T07:56:00.000-08:00

¹²As holy people whom God has chosen and loved, be sympathetic, kind, humble, gentle, and patient. ¹³Put up with each other, and forgive each other if anyone has a complaint. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. ¹⁴Above all, be loving. This ties everything together perfectly. Col 3:12-14 (God's Word Trans.)

It is cold today, 25 degree the thermometer said. I complained, I wasn't ready to be awake yet. Our English Bulldog, Chunk said otherwise. The chill bit as we walked on the porch, but the sun was out and feeling it's warmth was lovely.

The leaves have ice on them. The wind was blowing just enough to bring refreshing. It was silent. No one else stirring outside, except the chirp of a bird somewhere in the trees. It was beautiful. I thanked God for his creation, and for this unusual time allowed to just stop and listen. Speak to me Lord, open my eyes and heart today... show me what you want me to learn today.

After preparing a cup of coffee, I opened my laptop to check my emails. I see one come in and moan inwardly... what now. Hurt, bitterness, anger rises up in just a moment and chokes out the joy I felt this morning. I read the message anyway... suffering, illness, fear of the unknown is what was shared with me. God spoke... forgiveness.

But God... you know how she feels about me. You know what she's done to my family. YOU KNOW.... Oh Father, You Know. And You forgave anyway. You love them anyway. You called them Your own... Forgive. Forgive as You forgive.

In my search to be more like Him. To grow closer to Him. I must follow in His steps... and forgive. Why is it so hard with some people? Pride? Yes. Selfishness? Yes. But that is not what God has called me to be. I must lay down these "old man flesh" ways. You can not move in my life and bless me unless I do. I can't grow closer to You, unless I do.

Ok Lord, I see. I understand. I must be sympathetic to what has happened in her life. I must be kind. I must show humility first. I must be gentle with my words. Patient... that is the hardest. Loving... I must share love for her. I must love her regardless of anything from the past, present... even future.

I understand. This isn't what I had in mind when I asked You to speak to me today. I wanted something sweet and easy. But I hear You. I love You. So, I will obey You. Thank You, Father, for always forgiving and loving me.

2012 New Year's Revolution....

2011-12-29T21:20:00.000-08:00

This is the second year that I've asked God for direction in my life with a word and a scripture. I ran across a post from a sweet friend of mine at Graceful Abandon asking for link ups to declare our Revolutions. She also lists her top five for Personal and Home.

So here goes:

First of all, my word for 2012 is FOCUS! That seems simple huh? Well not for me....

My scripture comes from Hebrews 12:2. I love the whole verse because it is about my Jesus... but for me, I'm taking just a portion of it to apply to this years goal of FOCUS!

We must focus on
the source and goal of our faith.
He saw the joy ahead of him,
so he endured........ (GODS WORD Translation)

I love this translation because it used the word FOCUS!

On we go to the "Top Fives":

My Personal Top Five:

1. To give daily FOCUS to God in my prayers and devotions.

2. To give FOCUS daily to continue to enrich and grow my marriage, and show my great love and appreciation to my husband.

3. To FOCUS more intently on each child as a separate "soul" that needs to be fed and nourished with the love of God and His Word.

4. To FOCUS on my health. To make wise choices for my body. (I need this!)

5. To FOCUS in my choices of where to dedicate my time in order to fulfill my calling according to the talents He has given me.

My Home Top Five:

1. To be more diligent with the education of my children and use our time wisely in order for each child to reach their fullest potential. More hands on teaching!

2. To use my time more efficiently to organize and manage my household and cleaning.

3. To begin Mom orDad date nights with the kids once a month.

4. To better my "couponing" abilities and handle our finances in a more proficient way.

5. To return to my love of scrapbooking/faithbooking in order to leave footprints of our heritage!

Ok, that's it I think. Can't believe it is almost 2012.

Almost the end...

2011-12-28T14:28:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that 2011 is almost over. What a year it has been! What a God I have had the privilege of serving and depending on during this year as well!

I have been thinking today of all the happy moments this year. And of those less than happy moments, of which there have been many. I can say this year has held trials a plenty, some I didn't think we would make it through at the time... but now on the other side... wow.. God's grace and mercy is so abundantly clear.

I'm so excited for 2012. I know God has great things in store. I know that His ways are higher and the surprises are greater! I've learned that His will goes BEYOND my BEYOND and is so much better than what I could ever imagine.

In just a little over a week, our church LifeChurch Birmingham will begin a 21 day fast. I am choosing to do the Daniel fast again. I am clearing my schedule to make plenty of time to devote to worship and prayer. Last year was amazing... God grew me in so many ways. I am expecting nothing less for this year!

I'll be sharing through these 21 days. I'm going to share an answer to last years prayers as well. It was a HUGE one.!

Until then... be blessed!

Well...

2011-11-28T19:41:00.001-08:00

I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I have almost finished my 30 Days of Thanks, however, it's all on FaceBook. But... I'm going to add all of my days in this one post... so I will remember!

Day 30: Wow, November is over. But I will continue to be thankful for everything God has blessed me with. My husband, my children, my family, my church, my friends, my home and sooooo much more! I am blessed. Thank You Lord.

Day 29: Thankful for the country I live in.

Day 28: I'm thankful for the struggles. Because when they are over, life is sweeter.

Day 27: Thankful for all of God's blessings, both big and small!

Day 26: I am thankful for the smiles of my children. They brighten my day!

Day 25: I am thankful for the seasons. Because just as the seasons of earth are beautiful and ever changing... so are the seasons of my life.

Day 24: I am thankful for my husbands job.

Day 23: I am thankful for warm blankets, good coffee, and quiet moments.

Day 22: I am thankful today for every good and precious gift from above. Every blessing that God has given me....

Day 21: Thankful for the unconditional love if a Godly man. For all he does for me and our family, I am so blessed.

Day 20: Thankful for holiday seasons, and time to spend with my family. Some I only see once a year... I love my family, blessed with some amazing great aunts and uncles and cousins. Such an awesome heritage. Miss my grandmother though!

Day 19: I am thankful that His Word stands and is always true. I'm thankful for songs and music that touches my heart and gives me strength when I feel it's almost gone. I'm thankful for words that stick with me day after day that assures me His Word is true, what He has spoken over me and my family, regardless of what I see right now... is true and I can hold onto that until I do see it become reality. I am thankful for HOPE.

Day 18: I'm thankful for another day to be alive. To love my children. To love my husband. To love and worship my Father!

Day 17: I am thankful that although people change, God is faithful and unchanging. I am thankful that He cares for me, and see's me as His child. I am thankful that He loves me so much.

Day 16: I am thankful for peace in times of storms.

Day 15: Today I am thankful that if I seek more of God, He is faithful to provide. I'm thankful that today, I am spiritually nothing as I was long ago. I am thankful that day by day, He changes me. I'm also thankful that sometimes what He uses to change me and grow me "hurts"... (I'm also thankful for the easy changes too! )

Day 14: Thankful for the sweet presence of the Holy Spirit. Thankful for times of sweet worship. Thankful for tears that flow and provide healing. Thankful that God hears my prayers - and answers them in HIS time. Thankful that there is always hope

Day 13: Thankful that God's grace is abundant!

Day 12: I am thankful for those who serve in the mission fields sharing the gospel! So many lives changed forever because missionaries and their families answer THE CALL.

Day 11: I am thankful for my freedom, for those who have given their lives for it, and for those who continue to serve. I am thankful for our military and their families and how much they sacrifice daily. I am thankful that I am free....

Day 10: Thankful for unexpected blessings!

Day 9: Thankful for prayer, and that I can go straight to the Father! And that I have friends who willingly intercede on my behalf as well. :)

Day 8: I am so thankful for the parents God chose to give me to. They love me and have given me a strong sense of morals for which I am blessed. They have also been amazing grandparents to my kids!

Day 7: I am so thankful that God is a wonderful Father that tells His children NO! And then gives us so much more than our small plan would have ever produced!

Day 6: I am thankful to be free. Free to worship. Free to gather with my family and friends to pray and sing and glorify my Savior.

30 Days of Thanksgiving - Day 4 and Day 5

2011-11-05T19:01:00.000-07:00

Day 4 - I am thankful for all seven of my kids and the joy they bring to my life. I am also thankful (no really.....) for the lessons they have taught me to rely on God when all things were not so joyful. My children are a blessing.

Day 5 - I am thankful for the simple things in life - coffee, warm blankets, cuddle time with kids, etc. And that I am blessed to have those things, when there are so many others who do not.

30 Days of Thanksgiving - Day 3

2011-11-03T15:26:00.000-07:00

Today I am thankful for my LifeChurch family. For the friends that my family have made there. I'm thankful for the Pastor, that he is unashamed of the truth of the Gospel. I'm thankful for freedom of worship at our church. Fellowship with God's people is so very important. My church family blesses me!

30 Days of Thanksgiving - Day 2

2011-11-02T13:14:00.000-07:00

I am so thankful for God's creativity.

I am amazed that He saw the need to create seasons. I love Fall. I love the colors of the leaves. I love the crisp air. Wow... I just love, love, love Fall!

God is so amazing, that every detail of creation would be so perfectly thought of for His people!

What are you thankful for today?

30 Days of Thanksgiving...

2011-11-01T12:00:00.000-07:00

I am so happy that the crisp fall air and beautiful colors are here! I do believe Thanksgiving has become my favorite holiday time! I wonderful friend of mine from Alaska posted today on her FB the beginning of her 30 Days of Thanksgiving.... and I thought that is a wonderful idea.So for 30 days.... I'm going to do the same not only on my Facebook, but also here. I have so much to be THANKFUL for. What about you?

DAY 1

I am thankful for God's loved me so very much that He made a way for my salvation. That before the creation of this world, God already knew that mankind - that I would need a Savior. He loves me so much!

What Do I Need To Learn...

2011-09-29T17:31:00.000-07:00

from this Lord? I've been perfectly and happily healthy for 40 years. And now... when my life is full of kids, family, church, friends, school........... now, I fall apart. What do I need to learn here?

This has been my question for the last 3 weeks. Apparently my body is arguing with itself on how it should work. My "autonomic" system is all out of whack and it is wreaking havoc on my life.

I do not sit still well. I like to be busy. I like to do things with my husband, kids, homeschool, friends, etc... sitting still and doing nothing is not in my vocabulary most of the time. So God, why now?

I do not fully understand what is happening, the diagnosis, etc... but I'm trying to find answers. But I know my God always has a plan. I know He loves me and knows every part of my life and body. I know that somewhere in this sudden change of my life... He is going to teach me something.

Lord, may I be faithful to you in this season. I know that seasons come and seasons go, and for this moment... I will honor you with my praise. Because I know YOU will work all things for my good... above and beyond all I could ever imagine. Amen.

God knows...

2011-09-10T11:09:00.000-07:00

It seems our family continually walks through storms of some type. A new one has just come into focus and I am at a loss. I know that my God is faithful. I know that He has written my story. I know that I am a child of God and that He knows everything going on in my life and the life of my family. And I cling to that.

However, there are those moments where fear and dread creep in. Today is one of those days. The unknown of what is happening overtakes me. And waiting on appointments to find out more... well that is just painful!

I remember that my God knows. He sees each tear that falls. He is my maker. There is nothing surprising for Him. He knows my heart and holds it in His hands. Today... I'm choosing to remind myself of that.. moment by moment.

Just because

2011-08-21T21:29:00.000-07:00

this song is so fitting for my life and family right now... I had to share again!

Wow... it has been a while.

2011-08-20T22:33:00.000-07:00

My 90 day challenge is still going! It has been the hardest challenge I've had in a while. Not because of "the challenge", but because it seems that the enemy surely wants me not to achieve my goal.

I do not have much time to share at the moment, church is in the morning and it is already way past my bedtime, but soon we will have some coffee and catch up!

God is so good. His mercies are new every morning. And in spite of all the struggles of the past few weeks... HIS WORD STILL STANDS!

Are you ready?

2011-07-08T09:48:00.000-07:00

I am so excited about the 90 Day Challenge beginning on Monday. God has already been preparing my heart for this time, and yesterday, I found confirmation of two other things He was calling me to do during this time.

I am so very thankful that God has placed so many 'like-minded' people in my life over the past year. It is so sweet to have wonderful, precious women in my life that God is calling to a higher place. It is so sweet to walk this walk with friends.

I hope you will join me as I journal my way through the next 90 days. Even better, join me in reading daily. I just know God is going to move me and change me in mighty ways! I am excited for the journey!

Sharing a new song....

2011-06-28T21:00:00.000-07:00

I love this song. I love the words. I love the passion behind it. I love that it speaks to so many people in my life. I love that it is true.

I'm saddened however, because one of the people I love most in this world... doesn't see it, doesn't believe it, doesn't think it applies to her. It is so hard to see someone run so hard away from what you know will solve all of their hurts and wounds and what will give them PEACE!

So... I keep praying.

90 Day Challenge is almost here!

2011-06-22T12:17:00.000-07:00

Go on over to Mom's Tool Box and sign up for the challenge! It will change your life. I did this challenge last year, although it did take me a little longer than 90 days. But my heart grew closer to God as he revealed things that I had never seen. He made the "old stories" fresh and alive!

Join me in this walk!?!

Think...

2011-06-06T13:52:00.000-07:00

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things. Philippians 4:8

Recently my pastor spoke on this verse. I admit this is truly a verse I need painted on every wall, maybe even stamped on my hand.

Some days this thing called "my life" is amazingly wonderful. I am so very thankful for those days. Those are the days when it is easy to think on good things. Think about happy things. Keep my thoughts pure and lovely...

But mixed into those wonderful days, there is chaos. I admit that I do not like watching the news. I do not like to be ignorant of things going on in this world, but if I watch too much news or talk shows, it created unrest in my very soul. I have to remind myself that God is ultimately in control of everything. Every time I take a breath into my body or exhale, He has control.

There are so many things that stand at the door of my mind, ready to take over and wreak havoc if I allowed. And sometimes these thoughts do find their way in under the cracks. Sometimes I open the door wide with my attitude or "not nice" thoughts about things. I leave myself open and without any defense of the lies of the enemy when I do this. I leave myself open to unrest, lack of peace, hurt, bitterness, and more.

For me, I have to PURPOSE to listen and abide by this scripture. I have to have it constantly on my lips and before my eyes. I admit that I am not very good at it so far. But I am working on it. Setting my mind on the things of God, rather than on the things of men, changed my total attitude and feelings. When I allow my mind to think about all those things that relate to that verse, I allow my heart to be closer to the Father. I allow myself to let go of all that tried to tie me down and weaken my walk with Him.

What do YOU think on? Maybe you are like me... and allow news, finances, family members, and everything else that causes unrest to cloud your mind instead of focusing on all the good things of God. If you are... write this verse out, stick it everywhere your eyes go on a regular basis. Begin to train yourself on "right" thinking. I promise, those days, are so much sweeter.

Lord God, I am sorry that I allow so much to cloud my mind. I know that You can help me. I know that Your Word reminds me to think on good things. Father, may I begin each day, with my eyes focused on You. Help me to keep blinders set in place that would keep me from going into places that cloud my heart and mind with unpleasant things. You are a good God, so very Good to your child. I am blessed.

When Storms Come...

2011-05-24T11:20:00.000-07:00

Behold, I am laying in Zion a stone, a tested stone,
A costly cornerstone for the foundation, firmly placed.
He who believes in it will not be disturbed.
Isaiah 28:16

Alabama (and the South) was forever changed on April 27th with a massive tornado outbreak. Again this week, Joplin, MO was hit with what they are calling the worst Tornado in 60 years. The natural disasters that have happened globally is more than I have ever seen in my lifetime.

Think back with me over just the last few years... what storms have you seen in your life? Were they small thunder storms or massive F5 tornado's that left you devastated? Maybe some of both. For me, it has been at least one of just about every type storm there is. My roof has flown off, water's have rushed in and washed away parts of my walls, pieces of my life's "furniture" has been tossed about and broken, and there has been loss of life.

Two days after the tornado's hit Alabama, my husband and I "had" to do something. So we set out to just find places to help. We went to Cullman and then into Hayden. There is a small lake in Hayden where where there are some homes built around it. We drove through speechless from the destruction we saw.

We met one man who was driving his riding lawn mower helping another family move things, he had most of his own home destroyed. He asked if I had my camera and then invited us to walk down to his house and his neighbors to take pictures. His home was destroyed for the most part, but there were some walls left. However, next door a beautiful 3 story house was completely destroyed. There was nothing left but rubble. Those around shared the story of the couple who survived. Glory to God.

There is one thing that remained, wherever we went. Regardless of business building or home, the foundation was still there. Everything else may have been shaken, moved, ripped, toppled or blown away, except the FOUNDATION!

Now think again about your storms... what remains? For me it is my foundation. Everything that I have, I have purposed to build on the foundation of Christ. My foundation is my relationship with God. My foundation is my salvation by the blood of Jesus Christ. My foundation is the Holy Spirit that dwells within me. My foundation is STRONG and can not be moved.

Regardless of what happens in my life, my foundation remains steady. Now, that does not mean I do not cry, get angry, grieve, feel sad, pray harder, ask God 'why'? It does not mean I do not find myself curled up in a ball wondering what next... but I'm curled up on top of that foundation. My foundation is never shaken... my foundation is solid. My foundation is my hope and joy that I can rebuild again. Brick by brick, piece by piece... slow or fast, I can build again.

Most of the people we were privilege to talk to after the tornado's were Christians and knew everything would be ok. That their "foundation" was still solid. But in our conversations, almost every time, the comment came... "I can not imagine what would happen if I didn't have my relationship with God. How do those lost without the foundation of the Lord, find hope and joy and peace in the midst and aftermath of the storm?"

So, may I ask you.... WHO is your foundation?

I Might Have Missed It.

2011-03-22T12:57:00.000-07:00

Monday, I attended my women's Bible study group with my church friends. We are doing the Beth Moore study A Woman's Heart God's Dwelling Place. I have so enjoyed this journey thus far, especially since I had just read all about the tabernacle in my 90 days through the Bible. (Which I am still doing, just dragging behind a little.)

Anyway... in our study yesterday we listened to week seek of the video presentations by Beth. This entire week of lessons spoke to me so deeply, because in my heart of hearts... I am a worshipper. That is what God created me to be. From the heart He gave me, to the talents He enabled me with, etc... I love to worship!

There was a part of the lesson that spoke to loudly to me, that I had to share it. I admit, I have been known to be "one of those" who see's everything as "why me". Why do we not have the money we need to live "comfortable"? Why can't we have new cars like "so and so"? Why is keeping a daily devotion life so hard for me, when "so and so" it is so easy? Why have we had so many crisis in our family to endure, when it seems "so and so" has such an easy life? Well... do you see where I'm going with this?

Well Beth shared something that has transformed my thoughts... and it is a HUGE "ah ha" moment for me. Basically she said: Blessed is the person when God invades what comes naturally for everyone else, with the Supernatural. Ok... do you GET this!!!

Perhaps God is saying to me.... you have been chosen to have a "tougher" road... where things are not as "easy" as it may be for everyone else.... because I have chosen you to see how I work in the Supernatural! If it were easy for you "Vanessa"... if everything came simply.... you would never see ME in how I work miracles!

So Blessed am I... that God has so chosen me... to be able to see things He is doing in the supernatural!

Wow... that was just a huge thing for me. What a way to view trials and hardships.... And truly, knowing me.... He got it right.... because when everything is "easy going"... I am far less likely to be watching and praying and seeking....

Well.. I hope someone out there can get an "ah ha" out of this... because it was just amazing for me...

So just remember: There is a reason everything doesn't come "naturally". Maybe that reason is that I (you) have been CHOSEN to see God do the supernatural! How amazing is that!!!

God is able....

2011-03-07T10:40:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

If we are thrown in to the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. Daniel 3: 17

I am sorry that I have not posted more as of late. So many things have taken my attention from the blog... but not from God's word and presence. I love that technology affords me the scripture at the touch of a button and so grateful that His presence is with me everywhere!

I have always loved the story of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego. It was a childhood favorite of mine, and still is! The faith these men had in God still humbles me!

Can you imagine the thoughts that went through the minds of these three? The astrologers and the King were full of threats... threats to end their lives in a horrible way. But nothing was enough to convince these three to compromise the integrity of their faith or their convictions! (Would we be so strong?)

Instead of changing their minds and giving into the fear... they gave bold and unhesitating witness to their trust and faith in the ONE TRUE GOD! They had no doubt that God would save them. We serve the ONLY GOD, who is able to save His people from every situation. Our hope is in THE GOD who is our salvation, refuge and strength.

But there is another part of the story... the next verse.. "But even if He does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up." (v18) Wow...amazing! These men knew without a doubt that God was able... but they also knew God had a choice and in that choice there would be a greater reason... if God did not save them. They did however, want to make it crystal clear, that the king understood... whether God saved them or not... they would only worship THE GOD. God who said... I Am, that I Am. There is no God but Me!

They had unconditional faith and trust in God... totally loyalty. They possessed a faith and trust in God REGARDLESS of what God actually did for them, and REGARDLESS of the consequences. Like Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, we are tested. Sometimes we are tested beyond what we can even fathom to withstand. However, we must realize that we have a God who saves.

As I continue on this journey, I have confidence in MY GOD who will save me. It may not be my "way" or my "plan".. but I have learned that I can only see the small picture... and I have learned to trust God to know the "BIG" picture. I am thankful (although not so much at the time) of the hardships and trials that God has allowed me to go through. I am stronger in my faith. I am deeper in my commitment to following Him. I have a greater testimony. I can witness His greatness and ability to see me through. These things, however hard and horrible at the time, continue to shape me and the person God wants me to be.

So to the "king"..... I say.... the God we serve is able to save me... BUT if He doesn't... make no mistake... I will never bow down to worship any but HIM.

Please Pray..

2011-02-27T20:17:00.000-08:00

A wonderful man from our church is fighting for his life. In just a matter of days his body had been attacked by a disease that is fast and angry and he is in critical condition.

We know that God is able to heal and totally change the entire situation for His glory.

Please pray for Brett and his wife Laura and their family. He needs a divine miracle from the father of all miracles!

Thanks in advance! More blog posts soon!

40

2011-02-24T21:10:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my birthday. I turned 40 years old. I must say that I have celebrated to the uttermost! My family has been amazingly wonderful... and I am blessed beyond measure! I am overwhelmed by the love shown!

My husband did an amazing thing... it was actually a project in the works since Christmas, but he just finished it in time for my birthday! My loving husband spend endless hours (with the help of my son Caden, my father and grandfather) to build me a family alter. It is beautiful. The design took deep thought and every piece is precious. Every piece of wood has scripture written on it. All the measurements represent something religious in nature. The cross that my grandfather carved is made of two different types of wood, both grown on our family land. On Sunday, a former pastor and dear friend will come and consecrate the alter and my entire family will have communion together. I am so excited! God is moving in my family... and this is just a small piece of heritage I want to leave for my children.

More information later. Thanks for following my blog. Please invite anyone you think that might be blessed.

In closing, here are a few photo's of my wonderful surprise from my husband!

Easy Button

2011-02-20T20:15:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Stop doing wrong, learn to do right! Isaiah 1:16b-17

I love the book of Isaiah! So many wonderful glimpses of the future, or the Christ to come, of all that was ahead for those who loved Him. Excited to be there today!!!

This particular scripture just JUMPED off the page at me. Can it really be this easy? Can being a christian be so simple in reality? Why not?

Stop doing wrong. That is pretty straight forward. Don't do it... if God said it is evil, then don't do it. All throughout His word He has given us His commands to live by. If something does not line up with the WILL AND WORD of God, just don't do it!

Learn to do right. Well that's pretty easy too. As I just stated, His word is filled with His commands for our life. All the things we must do, the right things to live by and the standard of which we are to live is right there in the Word of God. Just learn it and do it!

Now, I do realize that being a christian and following the way of the Lord is not "easy". We will be persecuted, temped, abused, looked at like we are nuts... well you get my meaning. No one said it is really "easy".

But my point is... we make living for God sooooo difficult, when it is really simple. Stop doing wrong. Stop lying, cheating, stealing, cussing, abusing, being unfaithful, just stop sinning! We have a way... the Holy Spirit that came to dwell with us... that gives us a way!. So if it is wrong... just STOP!

Learn to do right. Seek God, get into the Word, meditate on His Word and DO IT! It really is a simple plan. God's mercy and grace provided a Savior, His Son, Jesus Christ. Accept Him, serve Him, love Him, follow Him... and great is our reward in heaven!

Stop doing wrong, learn to do right... and though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be whiter than snow. Though they are red like crimson, they shall be like wool. Easy!

I AM

2011-02-18T12:05:00.000-08:00

I admit I am just a few days behind on the reading for 90 Days through the Bible. But it is my weekend to catch up on it all! Woo Hoo!

The past few days it seems that so many people I love and care about have had some serious life issues come up. Health, family, major attacks from the father of lies.... thats just a few. My heart has been heavy for each one and my one on One discussions have become frequent wherever and whatever I have been engaged in. (Isn't it wonderful that He has ears to hear anytime, anyplace?)

I have spent a lot of time reflecting and studying the Tabernacle. I posted a few days ago, how amazing it was that my Bible reading, Beth Moore study and our Wednesday night study has all been around the Tabernacle. I know God has something HUGE to teach me... it can't just be a coincidence.

Anyway... all day today my heart has been camped on who God said He was. He said "I AM".. He is "I AM" and forever will be, "I AM". So what does that mean for me and for you? Well what is your need at this moment? I AM your healer, I AM your provider, I AM your peace, I AM your desire, I AM (fill in the blank). There is no limit to what God is... He is anything we need.

So often we (I) go everywhere looking for what I need, instead of to the SOURCE of all I need. But if He is I AM, that is the first place I should be going.

God I pray that I would keep You, the Great I AM ever before my eyes. May I never seek to find my answers for my needs anywhere but You and Your will for my life. You are my everything...

Valentine

2011-02-14T19:48:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day! I pray that today you are amazed and overjoyed by the sweet love of God. May you be thrilled and overwhelmed that you have a God that loves you so much, that He is pursuing you with great intensity! He longs to lavish upon us so much love. He longs for us to sit at His feet and adoringly look into His eyes with love in return. There is no greater "Valentine" than the saving grace and love of the Father. His love is so deep... it is unfathomable!

Enjoy one of my favorite songs! (More Psalms tomorrow, I have a few days of catch up!) Be blessed!!!

A Prayer...

2011-02-09T21:22:00.000-08:00

I'm going to take a short break from posting about my current reading schedule!

During our Wednesday night services our amazing pastor, Tim Mills at Life Church Birmingham has been teaching on the Tabernacle. I must just say... it has been amazing! It's just like God, to bring this 90 day's through the Bible, teaching at church, and my new Beth Moore study all centered around the Tabernacle! Apparently God has something He wants me to know about "His dwelling place".

The following prayer was written by Pastor Cho, the former pastor of the largest Assembly of God church in South Korea. It is a prayer that he wrote "praying" through the tabernacle. This particular portion is in regards to the golden lampstand. It's beautiful. Just 'had' to share.

Holy Spirit, I welcome a deeper more intimate relationship with you today.
Dear Holy Spirit, through your anointing give me your wisdom.
Help me to solve all the problems I face through your wisdom.
Give me your understanding so that I may understand the deep truths of God,
and I may live those truths and pass them on to my children.
Give me counsel so that I will follow your narrow path.
If it pleases you, allow me to advise others how to solve their problems.
Give me tremendous might so that I might be used by you to heal the sick and cast out the devil.
You are the same yesterday, today and forever.
Holy Spirit, increase my knowledge of the Bible.
Give me a keen fear of the Lord so that I walk very softly before you and not commit any sin.
Give me holiness through your presence, O Lord!
Holy Spirit you are a person, not a genie.
The Father worked in the forefront during the Old Testament and Jesus worked in the New; I live in the Age of the Holy Spirit.
I don't want to catch quail with my bare hands.
I want your wind to blow the quail into my camp.
I want to depend on you, Holy Spirit, not my own strength.
You are not an acrobat.
You are a Holy Person with a will, and emotions.
Forgive me for treating you impersonally.
You should be welcomed, loved, caressed, adored, worshipped.
You are my senior partner, you are my Lord. I depend upon you.
Let's go, Holy Spirit.
Thank you for your anointing.
Let's work together.
I will follow you!
Holy Spirit

Worship

2011-02-07T20:30:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Ezra opened the book. All the people could see him because he was standing above them; and he opened it, the people all stood up. Ezra praised the Lord, the great God; all the people lifted their hands and responded, "Amen! Amen!" Then they bowed down and worshiped the Lord with their faces to the ground. Ezra 8:5-6

There is nothing in my life as important or needed on a daily basis than worship. I am a worshiper.

It is in worship that we draw near to God with joy and gratitude for what He has done for us in and through Christ Jesus. Worship expresses faith, love and devotion from our hearts and with our lives to God the Father and to the worthy lamb who was slain for our sins.

I believe there are two key principles in worship. First, true worship takes place in spirit and truth. It takes place in God's revelation of Himself. It involves our spirit, not just our mind... but a deep connection with our very soul! Second, worship should follow the NT pattern for the church... we are to desire and seek all elements of worship found in the NT. The gifts of the Spirit are at work in our worship.

Much of the OT worship involved sacrifices. Today, since Christ served as our once and for all sacrifice, there is no need for further shedding of blood. As the NT church we are encouraged to "continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise - confessing His name (Heb 13:15) and to offer our bodies as living sacrifices (Rom 12:1).

All throughout the scriptures singing of psalms, hymns and spiritual songs were primary ways to worship. That is still in tact today. There is so much music available to us today. Many of the worship songs and hymns can bring us directly before the Throne of God easily. It should be a sweet offering to Him. But I personally believe that we need to hold all music to a standard. It must be in agreement with the scriptures and relevant in drawing people to HIM and not overtly about US. (I could write a whole paper on that one thought.)

What about prayer as a part of worship? Of course... it is a huge part of our worship!!! I admit this was preciously instilled in my life during my church bodies recent 21 day fast. I spent more time on my face in prayer to the Father than I have in a long time. I'm not proud of that... but I believe God wonderfully accepted my prayers and drew me to a keen understanding of how very important it is to be on a daily basis.

I believe a prominent part of our prayers need to be spend in thanksgiving and adoration. God wants to know our heart and our needs, but we do not need to just go before Him constantly with a "we want" list. Spend some time reading and meditating on the Lords Prayer. It is the most beautiful example of how we should pray!

Worship consists of reading the scriptures. Even in the OT the people were commanded to assembly every seven years at the Feast of Tabernacles to publicly read the Law of Moses. And here we come to the least talked about act of worship... tithes and offerings. Yes it is worship! We are to give to the Lord what is His... none of it is really ours.. He enabled us to work, gives us the gifts to do things for monetary gain... but in the end it is all His. It is a definite act of worship to our Lord.

Our NT worship is wonderful and amazing... even more so than in the OT maybe. Why? Because we have been given the gift and the gifting of the Holy Spirit. The gifts and manifestations given by the Holy Spirit brings our worship to a higher level. Our job is to keep seeking Him and going higher and higher!!!

There's just something about our worship that brings us closer and closer to the Savior! Isn't worship wonderful!!! I love to worship, to enter into His presence, to sit at His feet, and to feel His love just radiate over me. There is nothing more wonderful than this.

Stiff-necked People!

2011-02-04T20:57:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Do not be stiff necked, as your fathers were; submit to the Lord. Come to the sanctuary, which he has consecrated forever. 2 Chronicles 30:8

Hezekiah brought forth four truths that brought about genuine repentance.

1) God's people must turn their hearts back to Him. They must have a desire to forsake their sin and confess Him as Lord over their life. It must be a total commitment to Him alone. God will not bless His people who are living in "willful" sin.

2) God's people must return with a fervent love for Him. It must be a total 100% commitment to obey His commandments and keep covenant with Him. We must pursue purity of heart and obey His Word. It must be a total dedication... not half-hearted.

3) God's people must come to Him in humility. We must have a submission and worship and in service to connect with His love. The words "submit to the Lord" litteraly means to "give the hand to the Lord". We must submit to His calling, to His leading. We must give our "hands" to Him to work through for the sake of His kingdom.

He loves us. He pursues us. He is longing and waiting for a return of His people. We can not be stubborn and "stiff-necked"... or we will miss out on such amazing power and grace that is ours to have through Him.

Fully Committed

2011-02-03T13:34:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to Him. 2 Chronicles 16:9

Asa became King of Judah. God came upon Azaraih with a message for Asa... the Lord is with you when you are with Him. If you see Him, He will be found by you... but if you forsake Him....

This message gave Asa strength and courage to do what was right. He followed in the Lord, He did what was right in the eyes of the Lord.... for years God was with him in all that he did. But something changed...

Another king came against Asa... however instead of seeking God first, he took it upon himself to enlist another powerful King. Together they conquered more territory. But a seer came to Asa and confronted him, because he did not rely on the Lord, who had already proven Himself more than able to help Asa.

How often do we take matters into our own hands? Hasn't God proven Himself faithful to us over and over? Do we not know by now that He is there and ready to fully strengthen us when we fully rely on Him? So why do we do what know we should not do?

God values those who are so devoted to Him that He seeks us out. God strongly supports those who have given everything to Him in their righteous plans, deeds of faith, and times of danger and trials. If we are truly and completely devoted to God... He will give us strength and hold us up!

In the OT God showed a difference in those whose hearts were completely His and those who were divided between Him and the world. We see this again in the NT, in Revelations where these two types of people are compared: faithful over-comers and the luke-warm.

God calls us to love HIM completely and He is jealous for us. We can not be double minded in our relationship with Him. There really isn't a middle ground... it is all or none. God will not share our heart with things of this world. He values US too much... and He will not share us.

My friends, where does your heart belong? Is it ALL to Jesus or just mostly to Jesus? There really isn't an option... it must be fully and totally surrendered to Him. Oh Lord, may I be found fully committed to You and You alone!

Filled

2011-02-02T14:20:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

...and the glory of the Lord filled the temple. The priests could not enter the temple of the lord because the glory of the Lord filled it. 2 Chronicles 7:1b-2

Everything had been completed by Solomon, just as the Lord had given instruction. The temple was finished... it was gloriously beautiful! Can you imagine the sight of it all! The gold and bronze, it must have been overwhelming! So much work, so many years... but finally it was complete.

Solomon prayed, "O Lord God, may your eyes be open and your ears attentive to the prayers offered in this place!" It was a perfect moment in time for Solomon and the people of Israel.

Solomon closed his prayer and suddenly fire came from heaven and consumed all the burnt offering and sacrifices. They were acceptable and pleasing to Him! At that moment God's glory, His wonderful, majestic, and holy presence filled the temple!

God's visible presence, so awesome that the people bowed down, face down, and gave Him praise and worshiped Him. Can you imagine? I do not know that I could have contained myself. They sang praise to Him saying, "He is good, His love endures forever." What a worship service!

I long for the presence of God. For His glory to fill our place of worship! To bow before Him and proclaim, He is good and His love endures forever!!! I want to feel in a tangible way that He is near, and to be warmed by His presence! He still meets with us today.

If we pray for God to forgive us, turn from our ways, serve Him completely, offer Him our sacrifice.... He is still faithful to meet with us. His presence continues to fill our temples!

David's Mighty Men

2011-02-01T12:36:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

And David became more and more powerful, because the Lord Almighty was with him. 1 Chronicles 11:9

God was with David. David has a purpose and a destiny that God had spoken over him. With great destiny, he needed people to help and there was no short fall of men wanting to side with David. I think if I had been a man in OT time, I would have wanted to be on David's side as well!

The scripture records the men who chose to follow David. They were called "mighty men" because they accomplished great things for David in the name of the Lord. They helped David to secure his throne and wage war against those who opposed him. They held him up, they fought for him, they supported him.... they "had his back" you might say.

As I was reading about these awesome men and their great accomplishments two thoughts rushed into my mind. My first thought was that we all need our "mighty men" (or women) in our life to help us accomplish what God has set us to do. We need people in our lives who are going to fight for us, wage war for us, hold us up. Not in a literal sense of flesh and blood, because what we war against is not of flesh and blood, but in principalities and powers of this world (an not of this world). When God gives us a destiny, there will always be something fighting us to arrive where God wants us to be.

Think about those who you consider your friends. Do you have a "mighty" group that you know "has your back"? I will be honest and say that finding those people for myself has been difficult. Until recently, I have only had a very few people that I know who truly "fought" for me. God is bringing new and wonderful people into my life right now... and I am so thankful for that!

Several years ago, God blessed my life with a "mighty woman" who I have never met in real life. We met online because of a crafting interest we shared. Throughout these past nine years, Ms. Kim has been a blessing to me. We do not talk often, she lives on the other side of the country from me, but I know without a doubt that she holds me up in prayer. When situations have come against me or my family, she is the first on my list to contact to pray. I KNOW, that she wars in the heavenly for me. I hope that some day, this side of heaven I can meet her face to face... but until then (or we meet in heaven)... I know that she has "my back" .

If you do not have someone like this in your life, pray that God would send you a spiritually mighty man/woman. God hears our prayers and the desires of our hearts and I know that He will answer.

The second thought about these "mighty men" was that they were fierce in battle. Men also came to David daily to help make him King as promised, and to keep that kingdom established. Many men came to David after he had been anointed, but still had not taken his rightful place as king while Saul remained. They placed themselves under Davids authority before his kingdom came to full fruition.

We, as Christ followers here on earth, have placed ourselves as "mighty men" for our Savior, in a time where He is being rejected. We are fighting for our KING and His kingdom although it has not been fully established. We bow before His authority and fight for Him. So I ask you, as I asked myself.... are you a "mighty man" in service to our King? Are we fighting in the heavenly? Are we waging war on the things of this world that has rejected our Savior? Or... do we lack courage when it get's "ugly" in war? Do we cower in fear instead of pulling our sword and charging forward for His cause? If we will stand strong He is able and willing to lead us with His Word and His Spirit. What will you decide?

Almighty King... I am Yours. Give me strength as I draw my sword and march into war for Your Kingdom! Give me favor. Give me like minded friends who will go with me. May I never fear or falter in Your service until Your kingdom is fully established. Give me wisdom and courage to discern what I wage war against.... not flesh and blood, but the evil and principalities at work seeking to devour. May I clothe myself with Your armor and be ever ready for battle!

To The Kings

2011-01-30T21:40:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Remember, O Lord, how I have walked before you faithfully and with wholehearted devotion and have done what is good in your eyes. 2 Kings 20:3

King Hezekiah had heard the bad news... he was going to die. The prophet Isaiah told him to "put his house in order". This was his prayer to God. Wow. When I read this, I immediately prayed that I could bring this same prayer before my Savior when the end of my journey comes.

God heard Hezekiah though, and gave him more years to live. What an awesome God we serve. Death was coming, Hezekiah had been faithful and called out to God, and God delivered him for a time. God chose to use him just a little bit longer!

O Lord, May I walk faithfully before you with WHOLEHEARTED devotion. May my life be totally surrendered and open before You. You are my God, my King, my Healer.... May I do what is good in your eyes.

*** I must say, reading 1st and 2nd Kings exhausted me! These kings just didn't get it. There were a few like Hezekiah who followed God in His fullness... but most of them "did evil in the eyes of the Lord". To realize how far His chosen turned away from Him, must have broken God's heart. He is after all a jealous God... and He did get angry! But still today, Israel is God's chosen people.... He still calls them and waits for their return to Him.

I am so thankful that God is also a stubborn God... and continues to call us to Him.

Today ended a 21 day fast within my church family. The fast coupled with reading through God's Word, has radically changed my life. I sense an urgency to be with Him. To give Him the beginning of my time. I am excited to see what lies ahead for me (and for you) as we read through His anointed word!

Between the Knees

2011-01-28T12:58:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

...but Elijah climbed to the top of Carmel, bent down to the ground and put his face between his knees. 1 Kings 18: 42b

Elijah's faith and persistent prayer should be an encouragement!

Some thoughts on Elijah's prayer:

Elijah was a righteous man. God hears the prayers of the righteous. Elijah was a man, a human just like us. He prayed with deep intensity and God heard. Elijah's prayer was persistent and he had great faith.

Elijah prayed and kept praying. He sent his servant SEVEN times to go and look for a cloud. Seven times the servant went. Upon his return on the 7th - there was an answer. Just a small cloud the size of a man's fist... but it was the answer Elijah was waiting for. He did not give up... until he received an answer.

Elijah Prayed!

As believers, we are commanded to pray. It is our connection to God, our way of fellowship with Him. It is the means by which we grow and maintain our relationship with Him.

Prayer is our tool to receive God's blessings and power and to receive the fullness of His promises. All throughout scripture prayer is used for answers. Luke 11 we were promised the Holy Spirit if we continue to ask, seeking and knocking on the door of the Father. Acts 4:31 - the people prayed and were filled and spoke the word of God boldly. Paul requested prayers on his behalf, knowing that his would would be unsucessful without those prayers.

God desired our fellowship with Him. He hears our prayers and our petitions before Him. When we need great breakthrough's, we must not grow tired in praying and interceding. We must "put our heads between our knees and keep praying"... knowing that God will answer our prayers.

Turning Hearts

2011-01-27T11:31:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

May he turn our hearts to him, to walk in his ways and to keep the commands, decrees, and regulations he gave our fathers. 1 Kings 8:58

Solomon had prayed to the Lord in the temple which he had build for God. Then he turned to the people and prayed a blessing over them. It was a blessing they would not likely forget.

Solomon knew that hearts do not easily, on their own follow God. So he prayed that God would "help" them turn their hearts toward Him. He prayed for a desire in the people to follow and serve the Lord. Solomon wanted the people to always remember to follow the commandments of God, so they would be blessed.

How much more, because of the sacrifice of Jesus Christ, should our hearts be turned to the Father. We have been given so much, brought into royalty, because of the blood of Christ. We have been blessed in so many ways. Christ has given us freedom! Why do we sometimes turn so easily to follow the way of the world?

My prayer today, is like that of Solomon, may God turn our hearts to Him. May we walk in his ways. And follow Him all the days of our life. Amen.

Wisdom Please!

2011-01-26T11:29:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

So give your servant a discerning heart to govern your people and to distinguish between right and wrong. 1 Kings 3:9a

Solomon became king after his father David went the way of the dust. He was young, but knew how important it was for him to follow God's leading.

He went to make sacrifices to God and was granted whatever he would ask for. Wow... he had so many choices that he could have taken.... but wisdom is what he asked. Wisdom to know right and wrong.

God was so pleased in his choice that He granted Solomon all the other blessings as well... wealth, peace and long life. God did however ad a "but" to it all. Wisdom would only be guaranteed if Solomon continued to walk in God's way.

Wisdom is something we all should seek, God's wisdom, not the wisdom of "men". I admit I do not ask often enough for the wisdom I need to be a wife, a mother, a daughter, a teacher. I need more wisdom.

God will be faithful to us if we ask even today for His wisdom in our life and in our circumstances. But I believe we have the same "but" ... we must continue to walk in God's ways. If we are not walking with Him, spending time with Him in prayer and worship, how can we ever know what He is telling us. He can only impart His wisdom to us when we continue an open communication with Him. He is just waiting for us to ask....

Lord, I need YOUR wisdom to be a great wife. I need YOUR wisdom to be a wonderful mother to my children. I need YOUR wisdom to take care of my parents, be be a good friend, to be a good worker in Your kingdom. Give me wisdom as I read Your word and seek Your face. I will continue to follow after You...

Oh My Son!

2011-01-25T11:44:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

O my son Absalom! My son, my son Absalom! If only I had died instead of you... 2 Samuel 18:33

David cried and mourned for his son. Even though Absalom had killed his brother, turned against his father the King, and tried to take the throne... David was grieved upon his death.

David loved his sons I am sure. David loved the Lord, and knew that even under the worst of conditions, the Lord would restore Absalom in time. But that time never came.

I believe David's grief was more than for just the death of His son. I believe his desperate cry over his son was because he died in his rebellion. There was so salvation left for Absalom... he was gone. There was no redemption.

Have you cried out before God in despair for a child? Do you have a child that is lost in rebellion and sin? God hears our cries. God knows our heart. He knows our pain. He loves us and can give us peace. We must however continue to cry out for that child. To bring his or her name before the Father. He hears our cries. He knows our heart. And he cares.

Be encouraged today if you have a child "lost" . May you feel comfort in knowing God cares.

Father God, I pray for these children lost in sin and confusion. I pray for their eyes to be open and to see that they desperately need you. May they return to their families and may You bring reconciliation. Strengthen those of us who continue to cry out before You on their behalf. May we find peace knowing You hear us and care.

Undignified

2011-01-24T11:55:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

I will become even more undignified... 2 Samuel 6:22

I can not fathom, a king, barely dressed, dancing before the Lord. What would have caused David to do such a thing. His wife rebuked him, yet his reply was... I will become even more undignified!!!

Over the past few weeks, my prayer has been that God would take me to a place I have never been before. That the words that come from my mouth would be sweet before Him. That my praise and adoration would be a perfumed aroma before His throne.

I have listened to worship songs and hymns. Yet, I have realized.... I have sung those words without truly meaning what I was singing so often. I grew up singing hymns, I love hymns! I sang over and over... "all to Jesus, I surrender", but really didn't. What about "where He leads me I will follow"? So often I didn't listen to His leading and I surely didn't follow.

David had to strip down out of his royal attire in order to put on a "ephod" just a white linen dress. He did this with total abandon to the God Almighty who had given Him everything. David cast aside everything of this world that was His to fully worship God. Undignified... YES!

So what about us... what about our new songs we sing... "nothing compares to the promise I have in You" do we live this out daily. Is nothing more important than Him? Or how about 'here I am to worship, here I am to bow down"... how often have we sung this without bowing down? Oh I couldn't do that in my Sunday dress, or with my coat and tie! That would be.... undignified? God forgive us for allowing our worship to just become something we "do" and not something we "feel".

May we step out of our comfort zone, forget about what those around us are thinking (or might think) and worship God with reckless abandon! Worship Him undignified! Worship Him because of all that He has done for us. I want to be a passionate worshiper. I want to throw off my clothes - the things of the world that hold me back, and put on my white linen dress and make a fool of myself in the eyes of the world! I am desperate for God to move me into a new place... I will become undignified if that is what I need to do!

BE UNDIGNIFIED!

Lord, may my praise and worship and adoration be totally undignified before the world. May my passion for You give way for me to be completely free to dance before You. May my praise be sincere and a sweet aroma before You!

It's Sunday...

2011-01-23T13:46:00.001-08:00

Have a wonderful and blessed day! Rejoice in the Lord for HE is good!

See you on Monday!

Give Me

2011-01-22T12:45:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

...now appoint a king to lead us, such as all the other nations have. 1 Samuel 8:5b

Once again Israel complained. Up to now, they have a great track record, don't they? Ahhh... Can't you just hear them saying "give me this", "give me that", "give me a king"!

God although you have done EVERYTHING for us when we called out, You are not enough. We want to be like everyone else and have a king. Can you imagine the rejection God, Creator of the World felt? His chosen children, wanting something "more" because they were not satisfied in following Him.

God's plan was not for Israel to have a king, He was their King. He was all they ever needed. I believe this is a time that God allowed His permissive will to be done. It wasn't His perfect plan, but He gave them what they wanted. He heard their cries and gave them what they asked for. His heart was grieved.

How often in our lives have we given up the perfection of God's will because we just would listen or love Him enough? He allowed us to "have" what we wanted, although it wasn't HIS best. I can recall a few times in my life (more than I want to admit really).

I am blessed and God has brought great things out of my stupid choices for my life, but I often wonder, if I had just listened, where would I be? We must seek God's will and be patient while He brings us an answer. If we aren't, if we get sight of what someone else is doing and want that.... He might just allow it. We must love Him enough to listen! Nothing on this earth will give us God's peace in our life, except for following Him.

I'm sorry Lord, for all the times I've had it "my way" instead of listening to You. I love my life and am a blessed child of God! But sometimes, I just can't help but think... what if I had done it all Your way? May the remaining days of my life be spent listening to You and following your perfect will for my life. I love You!

Pouring Out

2011-01-21T19:07:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

...I was pouring out my soul to the Lord. 1 Samuel 1:15b

Today's reading was great! I have read about two of my favorite women in the Word!

I love the story of Ruth and Naomi. I admire Ruth so much for being so faithful. God blessed her for doing things right in His sight and for honoring her family. I love the story about Boaz as her kinsmen redeemer. What a wonderful parallel to Jesus Christ and how He redeemed us! Praise the Lord! (Take a few minutes and read the book of Ruth! It's beautiful.)

Reading on into 1 Samuel I find another story that touches my heart so very deeply. The story of Hannah.

She was a good wife to her husband, yet she was barren. His other wife (these wives, on my list to ask God about) taunted her daily because she had been able to bare sons. Hannah was grieved.

The word says she prayed a vow to the Lord, to give a son back to Him, if God would just honor her prayer. Eli the priest saw her and wasn't sure what to make of it all. But Hannah told Eli, she was deeply troubled. Hannah was "pouring out her soul" to the Lord.

As a mother, I am learning what it means to pour out my soul. My prayers come as desperate almost un-audible words to the Father, to hear my petitions. Pouring out my soul is deep. It is desperate. It tears into my very core. These are times of great despair or need, and God hears my prayers. Just as He did for Hannah.

Hannah received her blessing, a son. She kept her promise and gave him to the Lord to serve and grow under Eli. What a sacrifice. Her adoration and love for the Father was amazing. She gave so very much in return for God's answer to her prayer. I admire her deeply. I can not fathom sending my young son to "church" to live with and learn under my pastor, only to see him maybe once a year. She was a strong woman!!

Father God, I know times when I have poured out my very soul to you. You have so lovingly heard my prayer and answered me. Thank you for those times. I pray that I may grow and learn to be as faithful as Hannah was. That WHEN my children come to me and say, "the Lord has told me" to do this, I will be able to release them to You, knowing they are in Your hands. They are after all, only on "loan" to me. Thank you for my children and how they have blessed my life.

Over and Over Again

2011-01-20T11:32:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Midian so impoverished the Israelites that they cried out to the Lord for help. Judges 6:6

My head hurts and I am frustrated! Why was it so impossible for the people of Israel to just worship ONE GOD! The one God who had done so much beyond anyone's comprehension, just for them.

God's compassion for them was amazing. Once again Israel found themselves in bondage. Didn't take them long from the last rescue to forget God and all He had accomplished in their history and life, to go right back under someones rule. And when they had had enough... they cry out to God.

Israel turned to God as a last resort, only because they were yet again being oppressed. Their faith in God was not founded in love and gratitude for Him, but by their own selfish desires and ambitions. They only sought God when they were in crisis and desperate. Why did they so easily forget?

Aren't we much like Israel? I know I have been in my past. It has been a stinging pain inside me as I have read these chapters and realized how much I have been like Israel. I have been brought to my knees more than once during this journey! God forgive me.

We as His people need to ask ourselves, do we follow the Lord because we truly love Him. Do we follow His commands and His word because we adore Him? Do we serve Him because of all He has done for us? Or do we serve Him because of what we can receive?

We know that God gives good gifts to His children. He loves to lavish upon us. But this should never be our reason for serving Him. It should just be a benefit that goes beyond the awesome and terrifying fact that He loves us so, and we in turn love and adore Him.

He is the Lord God, there is none like Him!

Father God, forgive me for coming to you when I find myself in a mess, when I have been avoiding you in the good. I love You, adore You, magnify You, praise You, glorify You, daily because you have done so much for me! I will serve you Lord, in all things, at all times. You are my first love!

We Will Serve

2011-01-19T12:37:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve... But as for me and my house we will serve the Lord. Joshua 24:15

I would assume this was probably one of the most well known verses in the Word of God. I believe one of the most important for families for sure. It is a declaration!

Joshua knew that the peoples hearts were fickle, that they would probably never stay faithful to the Lord. He was so sure of this that he gave them a choice... but they swore they would serve Him.

Daily we are given a choice, like the people of Israel we have free will to choose what/who we will serve. We must stand and declare daily, that we WILL serve the Lord. In every moment, of every day.

As a mother, especially a homeschooling mother, I must instill the commandments of the Lord in to my children daily. So that when I am gone they will still know them. It is so important that we as Christian parents are instilling God's Word in our children. We can not be lazy or apathetic in doing so, or we may just find ourselves the last generation.

Have you made a choice? Have you stood up in your home, before your family and declared: As for me and my house we will serve the Lord as Joshua did? Declare! And follow through!

Lord God, I declare we will serve the Lord. Forgive me for not always making this stand. For allowing other "gods" to rob our time, especially our time with You. Show me how to instill in my children how important YOU are and following You is for their life. May my life be an example, and never a hindrance in their walk with you. We will remember, we will serve. Amen

Strong and Courageous

2011-01-18T13:21:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

Moses had died, the people of Israel had a new leader. I'm sure he was overwhelmed. It was a huge job to handle the Israelites.. they were after all like a huge group of children. They still hadn't learn to listen completely. They still complained. They still tested God. But it was God's plan that Joshua become the new leader.

God was specific that Joshua would be strong and courageous. He promised Joshua that He would be with him wherever they went. What a promise! It was now Joshua's charge to take the land God had promised... and he did just that.

Many times throughout these first few chapters of Joshua this phrase is used over and over. Be strong and courageous... God is with you. For those in present time who serve the Lord, who have consecrated themselves before Him, I believe God says... be strong and courageous.

Whatever God has called us to do, wherever He has destined for us to go, we can walk forward and complete His charge. We need to face our destiny knowing that we can be strong and courageous in everything, because God is surely with us.

Did you notice, at one point, it was the children of Israel who encouraged Joshua to be "strong and courageous". This should teach us about the importance of encouragement for our brothers and sisters in the Lord. We often know when they are taking on a new plan or in the middle of a long journey that God has sent them on. Our friends share with us what God has set in their heart, and we should offer words of encouragement... dear friend, be strong and courageous, God is with you wherever you go. What powerful words especially perhaps, if they are unsure or discouraged!

Lord God, Almighty Creator of all things, I praise Your name! I pray as I seek Your face, to know Your will, that I set my steps towards what You have called me to do, I will hear you say to me those words you spoke to Joshua. That I will step into my destiny and have no fear because I know You are with me. And Lord, may I be encouraging to my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, as they too follow Your will for them. When we face "giant armies" (problems and struggles bigger than us) may we lift each other up and be a reminder that You are there.

Very Near

2011-01-17T14:38:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

...the word is very near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it. Deuteronomy 30:14

Conviction is never an easy thing. Since beginning this 90 day journey I have realized that I have not spent enough time in God's word. I have not spent enough time digging deep into the very marrow of the Word of God.

I have come to realize how important repetition is. God told Moses to instruct the Iraelites of His law over and over. God wanted them to know it inside and out. Remember they were to bind it to them... to keep it in the forefront of everything they thought. God's commands were to be a beacon before them.

Can you believe that they needed to commit to memory all that God instructed them. And they didn't have 15 copies of it laying around their tents. (Ok, I love Bibles, and translations and have saved all of mine since I was a child, so I have a "few".) But what they did have was the very presence of God speaking to them...

We do have the Word of God and it is very near us, but if we do not pick it up and read it, meditate on it, pray over it, "take a bite and chew it up"... then is can not be in our mouth and hearts. And what we do not know and remember, we can not obey.

So my challenge is: Wipe off that layer of dust. Open the Bible... do the pages still crack because it's so new? Read His Word, it brings His presence near us. Commit them to heart and know them so you can obey.

Father, I am sorry that I have not realized how precious your Word is. How much I have needed it daily. Not just my special verses that I like to read, but every word. I praise You because Your Word has come alive to me. I love how You call me closer to you with ever word I read. May I always obey.

Remember

2011-01-16T12:07:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. Deuteronomy 8:2

Today is Sunday and worship with my local congregation was wonderful. God's presence and His power was shown in such a loving and wonderful way. He is amazing and I just live Him more every day.

My mind walked through the journey of the people of God in chapter 8. God was reminding them all He had done for them in this journey to the land they had been promised. Calling them to remember, and never forget what He had done so that they would continue to keep His commandments.

God gave them insight as to why they had to make this journey. It was all His plan, all the hard times, the lack of food, the lack of water, the battles they faced, everything was His plan, to reveal Himself to them in magnificent and earth shaking ways.

He had to take them through the desert to test their faithfulness, to know that they would "stick" with Him even in the hard times. He had to know if their love for Him was so intense and so deep, that in every desperate situation they would call upon Him, and not anyone else. He wanted them humbled by His provision and presence in their lives.

Tears fall from my eyes, and my heart swells with emotions I can not explain, as I realize the significance of this in my own life. I (my family) have walked through some serious deserts over the past 4 years. There have been times when I could not comprehend how I would even begin to put one foot in front of the other because it was just unbearable. But, I like the children of Israel, have been reminded each time at the end of those situations, just how truly HUGE my God is. That in the midst of my desert, He was there and was providing for me.... even in my suffering.

So often I have taken every path to solve the problem, you know... read a book, talked to friends, stressed, worried, lost sleep.... except fully rely on God. So I like the people of Israel have been allowed to have some really hard places to walk... to humble my pride and dependence on myself (and others) and found myself with no other direction to go, but to the Father.

I did not like going through these things, in fact, some of them still break my heart. However, I am thankful for a God that "allows" situations to bring me to a point of humbling myself and all my "answers" before Him, and realizing He is the only one who can bring me through any situation.

Father God, I pray that as other "deserts" come into my path, that I would go to You as my only source for provision and direction. May each hot and dry place my feet find themselves, teach me to humble my way, and my abilities, in order to surrender to what You have for me. May I be faithful to remember Your word and Your commands for my life. And at the end of these such times, may I know more than before that You are my God and You are the ONLY God. I give you praise and honor.

He Is One

2011-01-15T13:54:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I will give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the door frames of your houses and on your gates. Deuteronomy 6:4-9

God told Israel to hear that The Lord is One. There was and is and never will be but one God. That is comforting to me.... that He is Always! He reminded the Israelites of this often, He was and is a jealous God and desire all of our affections. I've realized since beginning this 90 Days through the Bible that I have not been giving God the time and attention that He so rightly deserves. My heart has been broken as I realize He has not been the only "lord" in my life.

I realize that God seeks fellowship with His people and requires us to Love Him. I have to give Him my love, loyalty and gratitude if I want to walk in a covenant relationship with Him, just as the Iraelites did. I must love Him with every fiber of my being... everything I am, have, or ever want.. I must love him. If I am so completely devoted and in love with Him and sit and walk in this love we share, then I am much more able to follow the second part of this command given in the New Testament, to love my neighbor.

God expects us to know His commandments, to "chew" on them, to think on them, to keep them in front of our mind every moment of our day and night. The commands He has given us are not to be just "picked up" when it's convenient, but to be EVER PRESENT in our daily life.

I am required to teach my children and future generations. It's my responsibility to break it down, feed them piece by piece. To make them understand from the moment they enter into the world what their Creator wants them to do and how to live as they grow. I admit... I've not succeeded with this as I should. Too often I have relied on "church" to do it. I know I have a higher calling as a mother than to just take "care" of their needs, I must tend their hearts and minds like a fertile field.

Devotion to God at home is not an option, it is commanded by God. Everything we do, even to the very simplest of daily living, can be related to God and impressed on our children. I know that I have been called to do more, to make sure they know more than just what they are taught at church, but for me to share with them who I see that God is and how He is at work in our home.

Well... I can't believe this journey we have been on since beginning in Genesis. I am in awe of God' presence through His word. I am amazed by how He has worked through the travel of the Israelites. God is always there with His people...we need only to have faith.

Lord God, I know that I have not given 100% to teaching my children your Word. Forgive me for relying on teachers at church. Show me daily how to pour your life giving words into their lives. I love you God, the One and Only God. You continue to amaze me!

Totally Reliable

2011-01-14T10:46:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Numbers 23:19a

Much to Balak's unhappiness, Balaam could only deliver the words of the Lord. Blessings were upon Israel regardless of what anyone else wanted. And God could not lie and say otherwise, through Balaam.

I am thankful for a God who keeps His word. He is the God I have complete confidence in. He is not unreliable, fickle or changeable... His very nature is faithful to His promises. Isn't that wonderful!!

This amazing attribute of God however, does not mean that there is never a possibility of God changing His mind or plans. We sometimes mess up His plan, which after repentance, He can redirect. I believe that the prayers of intercessors can be heard so deeply in God's heart that He is able to change paths and plans.

I am so blessed to serve a God who I can totally depend. I know He will never fail me or let me down. His promises are definite. That gives me sweet peace!

Lord God, I am grateful for Your promises in my life. For the security I have of knowing You will never falter or fail me. I have to realize that my plans are not Yours, and I must rest in the peace of knowing You do all things for my good! I love you Lord!

Grumble

2011-01-13T13:45:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Now the people complained about their hardships in the hearing of the Lord, and when He heard them His anger was aroused. Numbers 11:1

Day 11 of 90 - What a wonderful day of reading! I can say one thing about the Israelites so far... they are consistent. Consistently complaining! They complained about everything too. Nothing satisfied them.

They were hungry, God sent them quail. They challenged Moses, God opened up the ground and swallowed some, brought disease on some, burned up some, provided water from a rock...and yet they still complained!

They had only been on their journey 3 days when they began to grumble and complain because their circumstances were not ideal. Wow.... how often have I been just like the Isrealites. God has always been so faithful to me, never failing, yet because I don't have a new car, or the house I desire, or the amount in the bank I wish... I complain that He hasn't done enough! I am so thankful that He has chosen not to consume me with fire... (yet).

The Isrealites quickly forgot their deliverance from slavery and God's mighty action on their behalf. They would not trust God and commit their lives and future to Him. This only brought them more misery in God's anger and judgment.

The Isrealites complained that they wanted meat. They were not satisfied with what God had already provided, so He answered their cries of complaining. He sent them quail. Not just a few quail, but more than they ever wanted, for 3o days. So much quail it made them sick! The scripture said - enough until it comes out of your nostrils. I would say that was a lot of quail. God was angry because they rejected what He had already provided, they wanted MORE.

The people complained like spoiled kids who wanted their own way. Got let them have what they wanted, but with it sent a wasting disease. We as God's children need to realize it is dangerous to insist on our way and desires, rather than humbly submit to God's way and be grateful for His provisions. To reject God's way of dealing with us is equivalent to unbelief and rebellion.... which brings judgement.

I can't help but hear that old country song... "I Thank God For Unanswered Prayers"... because in our selfishness we ask God for things that are not good for us. Things we do not need. I know I am thankful that His answer has been NO more than a few times.

May we learn to be "happy" where we are. Knowing what God has given us is for OUR good. He has supplied our needs, not always our wants, but He gives GOOD things to His children.

Father God, I am sorry for times I have complained. You have given me so many things, and I am thankful. Show me how to be content in all things and never grumble and complain. You are ,y God and You supply all my needs according to Your purpose for me! Thank you precious Father!

Sometimes

Blessings.

2011-01-12T11:03:00.000-08:00

I relished my reading today.. all about the set up of the 12 Tribes, their position around the Tabernacle, God's plans are amazing. Wouldn't it be awesome if we had the opportunity to meet with God and have Him lay out His plans for our lives in such detail! But I realize that is where faith comes in! :)

I also enjoyed the instruction of the Levites, and their "setting apart". Their example symbolized the godly separation that should have characterized the whole nation of Isreal. I wonder if the Levites felt how much of an honor it was that God set them apart to serve with the priests of the Tabernacle! Wow.

My post today is short, but I think it should be. My daily nugget is probably one of my favorite scriptures. When I was in college, the choir I toured with from Trevecca University, we sang this to the close of each concert. I always cried! Enjoy this blessing!

Daily Nugget:

The Lord bless you and keep you;

The Lord make His face shine upon you

and be gracious to you;

The Lord turn His face toward you

and give you peace.

~Numbers 6: 24-26

Atonement

2011-01-11T11:03:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

This is to be a lasting ordinance for you: Atonement is to be made once a year for all the sins of the Israelite. And it was done, as the Lord commanded Moses. Leviticus 16:34

The word atonement means to "cover over". So the offering made by the priests, the blood shed was to "cover over" the Israelites sins. A ransom had to be paid - and adequate recompense for the offense!

The need for atonement arose because of the sin of the Isrealite people. The Atonement Sacrifice would cover all the sins not yet covered by sacrifices made through the year. There had to be an Atonement Sacrifice so that they would be forgiven and God's wrath would not overtake them.

Because God desired to save the Isrealites, forgive their sins and reconcile them to himself, He furnished a way of salvation by allowing the priests to make sacrifice and blood offering. In doing this, their sins were covered.

The Rituals of the Day of ,Atonement were specific and had to be carried out exactly! It was a serious time. The Day of Atonement was a solemn day in which the people fasted and humbled themselves before the Lord. This attitude of the people expressed the seriousness of sin. The Day of Atonement also had to be repeated every year. One sacrifice was not enough!

The fact that they had to be repeated yearly, showed that there was something "incomplete" about them. They were not sufficient for all time. But.... there came a Lamb, a once and for all sacrifice.

What Christ did on the cross was our once and for all Day of Atonement! Hallelujah to the Lamb!!!

He represented the atonement, forgiveness, reconciliation and cleansing we so desperately needed. Jesus sacrifice was our "covering over" of sins, the sacrifice that turned away God's wrath, reconciling us to Him. The Most Holy place where the priest entered in the Old Testament is now God's Throne in heaven, where Christ as our High Priest can enter in.

Jesus Christ death on the cross was our "complete and perfect" sacrifice for us. There is no more need for any sacrifices... once and for all... Christ was enough!

Father God, I thank you for this time in Leviticus. Thank you for enabling me to keep reading when it was tough and the kids just didn't want me to! Thank You for revealing such amazing things to me! But most of all, I thank You for Your son Jesus! I praise His Holy Name for being the Lamb that came to take away the sins of the world, but even still, my sins! May I realize daily that sin is not to be taken lightly. To live in a way to honor the sacrifice made for me. Hallelujah to the Lamb! I praise You!

Thank you for reading along. I would love to hear from you!

Be Holy

2011-01-10T13:35:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

I am the Lord your God; consecrate yourselves and be holy, because I am holy. Leviticus 11:44

My reading for today has been filled with tedious facts and information. I think I can honestly say, although I find it amazingly wonderful that God gave such detailed direction for worship and atonement to Moses... I'm thankful we do not still have to go to that extent today.

I am thankful that Jesus sacrifice on the cross for me, was enough for the rest of my life. Hallelujah!

But I do believe we are still to give Him offerings! Offerings that He finds as a "sweet aroma". I believe we are to give Him worship.. all the time, not just while the songs are being sung on Sunday. I believe we are to give Him our first fruits - whether that is our time or our finances. I have realized, after all, it is already HIS. He choose to give me another day to live so therefore, it should already BE HIS.

God has called us to consecrate ourselves. One dictionary has this to say:

Consecration is the solemn dedication to a special purpose or service, usually religious.

The word "consecration" literally means "to associate with the sacred".

Solomn dedication to a purpose... wow. Am I dedicated to one purpose - to be Holy and live my life to God? Would someone associate me with 'sacred". Too often, I would say no. But we are still called to consecrate ourselves and become holy because HE IS HOLY! We have a high calling. It will take much effort.

Praying, fasting, giving - just to name a few. These things we are called to do, in order to be Holy as He is Holy. I know I still have a great journey to take before I would see myself as Holy. But again, the blood that consecrated me, that was my sacrifice, has already been spilled. My 'ram" was Jesus Christ, and because of Him, I can be Holy! Praise the precious name of Jesus!

Now Father... I pray that we would not get so tied up in the specifics of what is "holy" that we forget it is all about YOU and not about US. We can never truly do everything 100% perfect all the time, but we should most certainly strive for that. I praise you, for sending YOUR son to die such a horrible death, just for me. I ask Lord, that my sacrifices to you would be as a sweet aroma to You. That you would find joy in what I have to offer. You are my everlasting Father! I love you so much!

By Name

2011-01-09T12:59:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

I know you by name and you have found favor with me. Exodus 33:12b

During my reading today, this verse just shouted my name! I am thrilled to think that the God of the Universe, Maker of All Things, knows MY name and has found favor with me.

What an amazing feeling to know that God loves me so much, that with all the millions of people on the planet, HE KNOWS MY NAME! I just adore that.

And even better than knowing my name... is the idea, that I have lived my life in a way that He could truly say "I HAVE FOUND FAVOR IN YOU." That just makes me want to sing and dance and leap and run... well you get the idea.

My Great Savior, I am thrilled that you know me by name. I pray that above everything else that I may do in this life, that You can look at me ans say You found favor with me! You amaze me. You totally change my world.. just knowing that YOU kjnow MY name!

Thank you for taking the time to read my posts! If you are reading along with me, please leave me a message! See you tomorrow!!!

Carried on Eagles Wings

2011-01-08T12:45:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

...and how I carried you on eagles' wings and brought you to myself. Now if you obey me fully and keep my covenant, then... Exodus 19: 4b-5a

Just as a mother eagle catches her young on her wings to keep them from crashing why learning to fly, God was caring for Israel and bringing her not just to Sinai, but to Himself. The expression of this verse is such a beautiful demonstration of how much God loves us. How much he loved Israel.

God does just the same for us... when we need Him desperately, when we feel as though we are falling, all while trying to learn to live for and serve Him, He is carrying us. Oh thank you Precious Father! You know I need catching so often!

But there is also a "condition". God said If you obey Me FULLY and keep MY covenant. God's love and care for the people was conditioned on their obedience to Him as their Lord. I think sometimes we as God's children forget that there is a IF and a THEN. We so often just assume that God is going to do for us all that He has said... for "free".

We need to remember that the "IF" is what we are called to do, obedience to HIM, not so that we can get to the "then" but because we love Him so much! The IF that we live out on a daily basis should be because we love, desire, adore, worship, glorify, magnify.... well you understand, HIM! It is when we give Him all of this unconditionally, that I believe He fulfills our THEN. And wow is His THEN amazing! It is more than we could ever hope or dream or even comprehend!

He is a generous and loving God. He lavishes us with good things.... He just wants us to fulfill our "IF" because we love Him so much!

Father God, I am always amazed by what you so graciously give to me. May I be even more faithful this coming year at fulfilling my IF to You. May I joyfully and lovingly keep Your Word. May I follow Your commandments because I love and adore You, not just because I want the THEN. You are Almighty and Worthy of all that I have, even if there is nothing more for You to give. May my praise and adoration be a beautiful offering to you always!!! Amen

Stand Firm

2011-01-07T10:07:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today... The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. Genesis 14: 13a, 14

Whew! Today's reading was long! Moses - his birth, his calling, his obedience. Pharaoh and his hard heart. Plagues... death.. deliverance!!! God's story is amazing! His plan and His purpose beyond our wildest dreams and imagination!!! What a wonderful ride today's reading was!!! (I think the 10 plagues would make a great Disney ride!)

Many things spoke to my heart today. Moses believed God, met with Him face to face, but still tried to find a "way out"... using his imperfections as an excuse. Wow. That once again brought me to my knees. I know that God has spoken to me in the past about a ministry or something HE was calling me to do... my answer: But...... Why do we have so little faith in ourselves when God sees that we are so much more than that? Lord God, God of Abraham Isaac, and Jacob, may I never try to get "out" of doing what You call me to do, just because I do not see myself as "able".

The scripture I used for my daily nugget was one of the major things that I took from today's reading. Right now, there are situations, some small and "sort of" insignificant, some huge that can change our families direction that I need to see God's deliverance in. But what am I doing? Running around, worrying, stressing, whining, feeling sorry for myself and that's a good day! So THANK YOU for the scripture reading today God, because I needed this HUGE reminder.

I need to be still. God has told us not to be afraid. Even when a vast army (really big problem) is chasing us... He says to not be afraid. To stand firm and SEE the deliverance. Gosh, if I'm running around like a "crazy woman" will I miss the deliverance and the awesomeness of how it is accomplished!

Why do I so easily forget that the LORD will fight for me. I don' have to battle peoples opinions. I do not have to struggle to see beyond my right now (although we are called to action and God did give us common sense for our own good). There are so many things I need to STOP doing and just be still.

Be still and watch. Be still and pray. Be still and believe. Be still and KNOW that HIS promises are to me, in my time of need. If I'm not still, I might just miss the deliverance!!!

My friend, what do you need to be delivered from? God has heard your cries, your please to Him. Do not be afraid. Stand firm and YOU WILL see the deliverance of the Lord!!!

Lord God, Thank you for reminding me that You always take care of me. I thank you for the precious deliverance you have already provided to me, by my salvation. Help me Holy One, to be still and watch and see what YOU are going to do. Amen

Our Small View - God's Big Plan

2011-01-06T10:51:00.000-08:00

Daily Nugget:

Genesis 45:7 But God sent me ahead of you to preserve for you a remnant on earth and to save your lives by a great deliverance.

I love the story of Joseph. Today my reading has continued through His journey from a much loved son, to a brother who was sold by jealous brothers, to a prison. From dreams, to position of great power, to restoration in the family. It is such a powerful story to behold!

Joseph and all that he experienced in his life, gives me great hope! It seems that almost daily, God is showing me that my view is so small. I get "stuck" on things that happen, especially bad things that do not go MY way.

I so often complain, whine, become grumpy and grouchy - but I realize it is mostly because my faith needs growing and my eyes need to see more clearly. My small view of situations are but just a segment of a much longer story being told.

I wonder how often Joseph looked back on what his brothers did and that pit he was in, amazed and in awe of God's grace and goodness. Did he realize because of his ability of explaining dreams, that so much would be esteemed to him? I'm not sure, but that is one person I would really like to sit down with in heaven and ask a few questions!

God knows the larger plan, He is the Author and Finisher of every story being woven here on earth. I want to learn from Joseph to be content in where I am, in the situations I find myself, knowing that it is all just a small part of the story God has written for me.

Genesis 50:20 You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.

Father God, thank Your Word. I am so thrilled that I can read accounts from long ago and still learn today! The stories you authored over time continue to amaze me. I pray that I may be more like Joseph, and when I find myself in situations where it seems my world is crashing, or I am losing ground, when family isn't who I thought they were, or just feeling at the end of the rope, that I will be aware that it is just a brief moment of time. That I will have faith and trust in YOU to know YOU are working all things out for my good and YOU have a Big Plan that I just do not see. Father may You accomplish great things through me. I am Yours. Continue to write my life's Big Picture!

I am excited to begin Exodus tomorrow! Join me.

Even in the worst of times...

2011-01-05T11:29:00.000-08:00

Reading for day 3 of 90 is completed. I must say, I have found great pleasure in reading the Bible. I have read stories that I have heard from a young age, but have found details that I have never know. It is so amazing how God is able to make His Word come alive.

Daily Nugget:

Genesis 39:20b-21 But while Joseph was there in the prison, the Lord was with him; he showed him kindness and granted him favor in the eyes of the prison warden.

I have not ever been to prison (of which I am very happy), but I am sure it is not a good place to be. Especially prisons in the days of Joseph. But I have been in my own type of "prison". I am sure you have as well.

Times where you have been accused or thought to have done something, where your world has been torn apart, only it wasn't YOU, you were just minding your own business, doing what you were called to do, and someone else twisted it. Times where you found yourself in the midst of great distress, maybe with your husband, or your children, or other family. Perhaps you have found yourself in a time of great struggles within your church...

Whatever "prison" we have or may still find ourselves, we can be assured of one thing... the Lord is with You.

I found great comfort in these words today. So much had already transpired in Joseph's life. His own brothers turned against him... because of jealousy. He was thrown in a pit, then sold as a slave... but whatever situation he found himself in, he prospered, because God was with Him.

My sweet friends, for you who serve the Almighty God, God of Abraham, Jacob and Isaac, He is just the same today as He was long ago. And He is with us even in the most horrific of times. God shows us kindness and grants us favor. We must learn to not "wallow" in our situation... but hold fast to the knowledge we serve such an Incredible and Awesome God.

My Father God, thank you for always being in my "situations". I know that in my own life, I have found myself in my own pit, my own prison. But every time, You have been with me. I give you praise and glory for your "favor" in my life. Father God, may I always strive to keep You in sight, knowing that You are with me. I thank You for all that is good in my life, for I know, without You... I would still be in despair! Amen

Twists and turns...

2011-01-04T17:53:00.000-08:00

it is amazing how many twists and turns there have been already in the Bible. I'm only in Genesis...

Today's Nugget:

Genesis 28:15 I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go...

I am now through the 28th chapter of Genesis... and I can honestly say that I forget how imperfect those God used in the beginning of time were.

People doubted God to do what He said, because of age. People took it upon themselves to "do it their way" because of doubt. Bad choices, haunting decisions, ill-fated attempts to work God's plan ahead of God Himself. Wait... that sounds just a little too much like me! Lord, how often I have done exactly (well not really) what Abraham and Isaac and Esau and Jacob and Sarah have done. Trying to do it my way... believing you, knowing you are God Almighty, but maybe just not having the faith and patience to see YOU LORD, bring it to pass!

I am humbled today, that in-spite of all their short comings and failures, God held to His promises and fulfilled His purpose for their life. There was never a time where it was "too much for God". His promises, God's very word held as a covenant, continued to cover these imperfect and faltering people! Lord, does that mean, that I too, regardless of how I have tried to do it "my way", can still be used and blessed and covered by You to do amazing and wonderful things!?!

Father God, I am so very thankful that you see my imperfections and still love me any way. I am sorry for taking things, great things You have promised me, and totally blowing it. Lord, I admit I need You. I need Your guidance and direction. I want a revelation of just where You want me to be and how I am to be used for Your glory. Show me Lord, that the promises You have given me, even long ago, are still possible. And Father, allow me to wait patiently as You fulfill them and show me which direction to go. I am blessed that YOU are watching over me, where ever I go. That YOU have Your hand and Your eyes ALWAYS upon me. What sweet peace that brings.

On a journey...

2011-01-03T22:09:00.000-08:00

well at least that is how I feel. I am starting a journey... to find God, and my place in His will.

I love the Lord with all my heart. But I am seeking His face, His voice, His hand in my life and family in a way I never have. I desire to know God in such an intimate way.. that my life is forever changed! And that my family is forever changed.

Tonight I started a 90 day challenge to read through the Bible. I am so very exited! I read my first day's assignment and wow... I am so happy to see things "pop" out that I never realized or had seen before! God is so good! I pray that God will continue to illuminate His word to me as I seek Him deeper and deeper.

Father God, I pray that these beginning days of 2011 will bring a new direction for my life. Lord I ask that You give me vision and clarity in what Your will is for me. You know my hearts desire... show me Your way and I will walk in it! I praise You Lord... and wait with great anticipation of what YOU have in store!

Anyone want to join me for the challenge? Today's scripture was Genesis 1:1 through Genesis 16;16.

Today's Nugget:

Genesis 5:24 Enoch walked with God; then he was no more, because God took him away.

I can honestly say I have never read this verse (at least that I remember). I am totally in awe of the recording of scripture that Enoch walked with God. For this to be important enough to be forever written, for all the world to see.... I believe Enoch "MUST" have been a man that excelled in Godliness. God was so pleased with Enoch's life that he did not face a natural death, because God just chose to take him to heaven. Enoch was special!

Lord, may the history of my life, when I leave this earth be: She walked with God. May my children, my heirs to come... know that I walked with God. What an amazing legacy. May I be forever so faithful!

Starting with a challenge....

2011-01-02T21:35:00.000-08:00

we had a wonderful worship service this morning. I am so very thankful for my church, LifeChurch Birmingham!

Today our youth pastor, Larry Lamb spoke in the service. He covered 4 aspects of our life that we must put into place for 2011. I can say that some of these are a real challenge for me.... but God moved my heart today... and I have purposed that this will be NEW in m life this year. I can honestly say that I have never, ever been as excited, almost giddy with anticipation of what God is going to do in my life this year. I just know there is going to be some amazing things ahead!

So what are these 4 things:

1. Forgiveness. (Forgiving anyone who I hold un-forgiveness for. We are not hurting them in any way, in fact... most likely they do not even know or have long since forgotten.)

2. Obedience. (At all cost... I must be in direct obedience to God and His Word... is there any other way?)

3. Thankfulness. (Being thankful for every thing! I really struggle with this... especially when it seems so many things seem to fall apart at one time. Lord, help me to be truly thankful for all I DO have... knowing you have more in store for me if I am faithful.)

4. Faith. (We must have faith, strong faith. Faith that says keep on walking God has it all under control, even when we know we have NO control. )

So those are some of the things I'll be focusing on for the beginning of 2011!..

God Bless.

My verse for 2011.... My "one word" NEW!!!

2010-12-31T23:22:00.000-08:00

The Lord says, "Forget what happened before,
and do not think about the past.
Look at the new thing I am going to do.
It is already happening. Don't you see it?
I will make a road in the desert and rivers in the dry land.
Isaiah 43:18

Saying Good Bye to 2010...

2010-12-31T18:32:00.000-08:00

I honestly can say... I'm very glad to see this year go. I look back and am so very thankful for what God has given us, and brought us through. We have had some very happy times, and some very hard and heart wrenching times as well this year.

I find great joy in knowing my children are healthy. I feel abundantly blessed that God lead us to a new church and has supplied some wonderful friends for my children (of all ages). I am thankful that even through the darkest hours of life, God has brought my husband and I to a deeper commitment to each other, and to HIM! I am blessed that our children have been witness to our trust and faith in God. They have been witness to our hurt and "anger" and frustration at God as well.... because honestly... don't we all sometimes just NOT understand, if even for just a moment... WHY? But our family as a whole has seen and been keenly aware that our small picture and "plan" is nothing in light of HIS ways and HIS plans for us and those in our life.

Our family has lost loved ones this year... and added some new ones. For each I am thankful... for it shows that life begins and ends... and it begins and ends with the Father. In HIM we have all things... and in HIM is our beginning and ending.

I am glad to say goodbye to 2010.. and welcome 2011 with open arms. I expect God to be in total control. I pray that when I lay my life and family down before His throne at the strike of midnight... that I am able to leave it there... knowing that HE has it all under control!

So... goodbye 2010.... thank you for the times of teaching, times of joy, and times of abundance and lean. And Thank You.. that you are going out quietly... as 2011 is ushered in on my knees... May I spent more time on my knees than ever before and more time in God's presence!

I love to read....

2010-12-29T10:04:00.000-08:00

but I do not find time to do so often enough. But one of my wonderful daughters gifted me with a new Ted Dekker book - The Bride Collector. I love his books! :)

So I have read every moment I had. My husband called me to bed... it was 2:45 am... I had NO idea! :)

But the book was wonderful. I won't spoil it for anyone who hasn't read, but... I have some thoughts from it...

Did you know... YOU are God's favorite? You are! You are beautiful and perfect. You are His favorite. You know what is just as awesome? So am I! Yes my dear one... He loves us both... completely and perfectly and equally. And for we who choose to love and serve Him... we are His Bride. AHHHH... completely wonderful and beautiful.... and WE are HIS Favorite!

Doesn't that thought just make you want to dance and sing! That very simple thought... I choose to keep close to my heart. I needed that little thought. There have been some things happening around me.. that have made me feel less than loved. Less than cherished and important to some people.... some that I thought were different. Why do we place our importance on those in this world? Do we want to be loved and accepted, yes of course... but I am trying to remember that my worth, my joy, my peace, my beauty, my very reason for being... is because I AM GOD'S FAVORITE! So today... I will be happy, I will rejoice, I will be ready and beautiful for His coming! For He has chosen me and I am HIS FAVORITE!!!

Tis So Sweet...

2010-12-27T09:29:00.000-08:00

to trust in Jesus. Just to take Him at His word.. ahhhh contemporary music is amazing, but I still adore the hymns of the church! Just so simple and to the point... ha.

The after Christmas blues have set in on me I think. So many things that I've just set aside that I must now focus on flood my thoughts. I feel overwhelmed with much of it. You know when one thing happens...and it seems to open the flood gates.... well that is where we were before Christmas... and now I have to calculate, add, subtract, worry, fuss... etc. But today... that old hymn is the first thing I've set into my thoughts.

I choose to trust Jesus. His Word is ever true. I trust Him. I know that He sees the bigger pcture in all things. It is so good to know that although I only see a very small picture - a picture that sometimes looks realy dim - I know the bigger picture will be so much more than I ever imagined. So Lord, although my mountain seems really GIANT at the moment... I know you are where my faith and trust shall remain!

What are your mountains? Do you know how sweet it is to trust in Jesus. To take Him at His word; to REST upon His promise. Ahhh... rest, sweet rest. I pray today that you and I both... find a sweet rest.

Lord, I am so very blessed in so many ways. Help me to not see you smaller than my mountains!!! Let me know you are bigger, and I can rest in You. Bless those that read my blog. Bless those who touch my life. Bless those who choose to rest in You and trust Your promises! You are a great God!

Looking Into Christmas...

2010-12-23T05:41:00.000-08:00

It has taken me a long time to get into the "Christmas Spirit" this year. Thanksgiving was barely over before we were running all over the place for play practices, performances, parties, etc. Christmas decorations were everywhere, except my house! And no one was around long enough to help get them up. But alas... I braved the cold and even worse "the shed" to dig them out!

After all the unpacking, etc... my three youngest children were dancing around me waiting to put their ornaments on the tree. It was such a joy to see the dazzle and excitement in their eyes as they looked into the lights on the tree. Every child, has received a new ornament every year of their life... so considering our oldest is 22, and we have seven children... that in itself is a lot of ornaments! I have several of my own special ornaments through the years.. and I enjoy placing them on the tree.

So this morning, as I sit in my living room, with the sun just breaking over the top of the horizon, (drinking an amazing cup of coffee) I am looking at my tree. Some branches hang low because there are too many ornaments, some branches have none. There is a definite "patch" where my precious 4 year old has chosen to hang hers. it is not perfect, it is not fancy, it does not have the latest colors to adorn the "catalog" pages... but what it does have... is mine alone. Memories... of every year of the children's lives. An ornament in memory of my grandmother, who adored Christmas. Handmade stars and angels, and bows and flowers.... it is a delightful tree!!!

Lord, I am so thankful for these children, who fill my heart and my home. I am thankful that they are healthy. I am thankful that they are growing up loving you. I am thankful that we have so much love, fierce love for each other, even in the midst of chaos. I am thankful that my tree is full. For as I see so many ornaments, I know that the time is coming where some will soon be missing, then a few more, and so it goes. As each child leaves the house.. these ornaments we have hung for so many years with love and joy and excitement will go with them. And Lord, when they begin to hang these ornaments on their own tree... may my children's eyes still be filled with wonder and amazement. I pray that they will have warm and happy memories of their childhood... and know that they were so loved. Thank you precious Jesus... for giving us the REASON to celebrate this season.

To Be Mary....

2010-12-21T22:19:00.000-08:00

But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. Luke 2:19

I have thought about this verse many times over the years since I became a mother. Mary is very close to the top of my list of people I want to sit down and talk to when I arrive in heaven. I want to hear the intimate details of what her heart felt knowing what a great responsibility she was taking on at such a young age.

I can not imagine knowing that I had been chosen to bring into this world the Son of God at such a young age... what faith God must have had in her. I think about what it would be like now... in this world that we live in... for a young girl to face what she did... would she have kept the child. How many blessings have been lost in this day and time.... but that's another post....

I know that I think on... "ponder" so many things for my children. Will they be healthy? Will they grow up happy? Will they serve the Lord? What is God's plan for their life and how can I help that? Does God already know what they would be.. I "ponder" these things in my heart, as I pray for guidance from the Father to be the best mother and example of His love that I can be.

I wonder... how often did Mary call out to the Father she served, who was also the Father of her son...
I wonder... what was it like to kiss the face of the baby, that would also become her Savior...

I wonder......

Stepping Out...

2010-12-13T20:14:00.000-08:00

Have you ever had a dream... but thought that it was too late? Have you ever made what you thought was the right decision, which really wasn't, but God still blessed you with "good things"? I have been there... think I am there...

Recently a friend entered back into my life... who is extremely talented. Through his ability.. it has opened up a door to a dream that I had totally given up... to have my own ministry in music. But wow, it is a HUGE step for me... a step of faith. It is also a huge step for me.. to believe in the ability that God gave me... that other's would want to share it with me.

There is lot's of work to do, but it is exciting just to think that there may be a new day coming for me... and that my time and "youth" is still open to doing God's long planned will for my life.

Lord... if I have ever needed you... ever needed direction and simple assurance in my life, it's now!

Time and life...

2010-12-02T10:41:00.000-08:00

has not been on my side.... but it's all good. God is still amazing!

We have finished our Beth Moore Study on Esther. I must say it has been one of the best of her's that I have done. So much of this study touched parts of my life "right now". My small group was such a blessing and I love those ladies who listened to me share and who shared their hearts.

I think the greatest thing that I learned was the lesson: It's tough being a woman living in the grip of fear. You see fear has always been something that has haunted me. I come by it honestly, as my mom is a worrisome person. She has kind of given that to me. You know I am one of "those" kinds of ladies... who can play scenarios in my head of every possible bad thing that can happen.

My children, my husband, my family mean everything to me. And I am sometimes almost crippled at the fear of something happening to them. But I have learned a very important thing.... "then what"?

Ok, so something goes, horribly wrong. Then what? I cry, I scream, I get mad at God. Then what? I pout, I whine, I grumble and wallow in my pain and suffering. Then what? With God... that then what is... I get up, I dust myself off, I know God holds me and my life and all around me in HIS hands and HIS plan is bigger than what my eye can ever see. My "then what" is... I trust you God. I will rest in YOU. That has been huge for me!

Thank you Father, that you hold my life in YOUR hands. When I take it into my own hands... what a mess I make! I give my life and all those dear to me to You (and sometimes that means daily, moment by moment even.) But I do know YOU have it all under control. I love you my "daddy God"... and I am so glad I am your child.

A few short thoughts...

2010-10-18T15:48:00.000-07:00

I have truly enjoyed the study on Esther. We are about half way through and I will admit it has been one of the hardest studies personally I have gone through. It's made me really look at myself, who I am, my destiny, God's plan for me... and even some of my 'ugly' stuff. It's been hard.

I am thankful that God's grace and mercy has also extended to me through these few weeks as well.

My thought for today... is about fear. Fear is something I struggle with. I am one of "those" kinds of people who actually can lay in bed at night and thing through the "what if" scenarios that will never happen. (Probably). It has paralyzed me at times... .especially when it is my fears related to my children. I think there is nothing in life I couldn't endure, except..... something involving my children.

But Beth game me something to think about. If _____________________ then ______________________. What is that for you? If (the worst and unthinkable happens), then (what, what will I do.. really). What if that unspeakable thing happens, then what? What will you do?

When I realized.... I'll scream, cry, writhe in misery, sleep, not eat, be mad at God, find peace with God, and move on...... it has given me freedom... I pray the worst never happens, but IF that "whatever" happens... THEN my God will be with me and bring me through. And IF I perish, I perish. It's ok... I plan to be with the Father.

Lord, I pray for for anyone out there, who reads this, that they will allow God to be their "then what". May fear not be a hold or a force in their life that the enemy can hold onto and hang over their head. Lord may we all find that IF______________ THEN_____________________. And may that always end with You.

Well as you see...

2010-10-05T20:08:00.000-07:00

I have not done a very good job of posting since beginning the Beth Moore Study. All I can say is that is has been wonderful so far... I will share, but life has been well "life"... and some days are just not as good as the other's.

However... God reigns and I know He holds me in His hands.

More later... Don't give up on me.

Week One - Day 1

2010-09-13T18:58:00.000-07:00

Short thoughts today.

Once upon a time..... always tell of impending doom. So who wants a "once upon a time" tale... I want a great story... so forget "once upon a time".

We all live in the "real world". There is always "something" wrong... to the ending of each story, is a happy outcome, but before we realize the happy ending... we will realize the grief."

WHEN WE TRUST OUR LIVES TO THE UNSEEN BUT EVER PRESENT GOD,
HE WILL WRITE OUR LIVES INTO HIS STORY AND EVERY LAST ONE OF THEM
WILL TURN OUT TO BE A GREAT READ! WITH A GRAND ENDING.

Father God, I do not want a fairy tale, I have experienced much grief, show me how to step into YOUR story of my life that has a grand ending! Amen.

Introduction -

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Last night we began our study with Beth Moore on Esther. I am so very excited about this study! My prayer is that God will reveal Himself to me in the ordinary and in the extra ordinary. My God is amazing and powerful and at this stage of my life, I need Him more than ever before!

Some thoughts from the Intro Video.

If God has a mind to move into a play - HE will. That being said... regardless of the office, the position, the situation... .if God wants to move in and take control He will!

Something I have never thought about before is that GOD is not mentioned anywhere in this book. It is a story, a telling of life, but Gods name or presence is never mentioned. In that... Esther is a book that lends hope. Hope in Providence. Hope in One, not "in the now".

How often have I thought God was nowhere around. That during this hard or even during a good time in my life, He was not there. God is never anonymous in our life. But we need to see Him, feel Him, know Him... even when there is not a "SUPERNATURAL" going on! :)

Father, My prayer is that You would be My God. That I would learn to know that in You I have my hope and my being. That in You , I am never alone. May I find assurance, that when I do not SEE you, or FEEL you... that you are still there. Father God, draw me to a closeness with you that I have never known. I pray for a special touch, a special calling and direction for my life. Amen

Life...

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has been crazy to say the least. But I will be back this week. I'm so excited that I have the privilege of being a part of the womens study by Beth Moore on Esther. We had our opening night last night, and I am already amazed and excited by just the introduction! I can not wait to share with you, my walk thought this study!

I know and believe that this is a timely "God appointed and anointed" study for me at the moment. Lot's of crossroads and changes in our family and lives... so I need to know God's plan for me as a woman, now more than ever!

I appologize...

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for not coming back with Song of Solomon. There have been some happenings in our family that have taken my attention. Not anything terrible.... but I needed to give my undivided attention to family.

I've been having a lot of one on One conversations lately with the Lord. You see, our oldest son will be leaving in 2 days for Afghanistan. I seems some of the orders have changed and that the mission will be a bit more dangerous than we had first believed. I will honestly say, I have spent a lot of hours praying for God's peace for our family.

I know that God is able to protect our son. I also know that my son needs to see that God is his refuge and source of strength. He needs a personal relationship that he has never had and that is my first prayer. I pray for his protection, but am keenly aware that the enemy of this world has his hand in play in all this, and that something "could" happen. I am not one to go blindly into the future without realizing all the possibilities.

I've prayed that my husband will have peace. I know this has been so hard on him. He has spent to much energy trying to teach our son the right things.... and watching him make mistakes is and has been tough. I have had some deep talks with the Lord about shielding my husband through this time too.

And our son leaves behind 6 brothers and sisters... of all ages. My heart is heavy for those who are old enough to know what is going on, where he is going, the possibilities... I know they worry. For the little ones who really don't understand... .I have prayed for God to protect and encourage their hearts and emotions. Regardless of when our son comes home, he will be different. Everyone that we know who has any military experience said to prepare for that. That he will never be the "brother and son" that he was once. So... I pray for wisdom for all of us, to love him, and care for him, however he returns to us.

I am not from a military family... .have no military friends per say... .so this is all very new to me. The only source I know to hold onto, to give my grief and anguish too, to totally depend on is Jesus! My Savior, my Redeemer...

I will return soon with a new study or thought... but for now.... lift us up in your prayers.

A quick thought...

2010-08-07T21:58:00.000-07:00

My week has been busier than I anticipated. I'll be back to Song of Solomon on Monday.

I spent today doing yard work with my oldest daughter and her sweetheart. My husband has a really bad back, so it has become my job to help keep things mowed and cared for. I will be honest.... I have never, ever mowed my own yard. Even growing up my brother or my dad always did the yard work. Honestly, I've always been scared to mow. Guess it's crazy, but I never thought I could really do it. But things happen, situations change.... and you find yourself needing to broaden your scope of ability. I didn't want to do it, I hate to sweat, I hate dirt, I'm south a prissy southern girl over all! :)

But today, I got out there, hair in a bandanna, old clothes, ready to tackle a new challenge in my life. We have a very rough yard, not smooth at all! So I started really slow... gosh I was so afraid of turning over. But then, after a little while, I was more comfortable, and cranked up the speed. Before I knew it... I looked back and the yard was finished! Wooo Hooo!!! I did it. And I was really proud.

So.. what is the point behind my long story? Well... I think that sometimes God calls us to do something hard for Him. Something that maybe we have not ever done before, have no idea how to do, etc. But if we step out on faith, even small steps, however unstable they may be, before long, we find out that we were able to do it all along! God always equips us when we step out of faith. And before we know it..He is calling us to take another step, then another.... and all along God is there, equipping, preparing, giving us all we need in that moment.

I have to think of the scripture. I can do all things through Christ which gives me strength! Phil 4:13

That's it. I hope everyone has a wonderful, blessed, amazing and glorious Sunday! God is so amazing! He is worthy of all of our praise!

God's Superior Love ...

2010-08-03T18:31:00.000-07:00

GOD'S SUPERIOR LOVE

How God Feels About Us! Jesus love for us is better than wine! Praise the Lord!

Spiritual Immaturity Is Not Rebellion:

God feels different emotions related to how people respond to Him. So many are confused about the Love of God. Repentance is a changing of attitude of the heart that turns "from sin" and "to God" according to the "light of understanding". Spiritual immaturity is not the same as rebellion. God looks inwardly when we see outwardly.

Our repentance, obedience and love for God are real and sincere even while they are weak and flawed. Weak love is not false love! The sincere intention to obey God is distinct from the attainment of mature obedience! The believer who sins shows their sincerity by QUICKLY REPENTING and renewing their war against that sin.

God delights in a sincere desire or cry in our spirit to obey Him. God does not confuse spiritual immaturity with rebellion. If we become confused by this (especially we who are "seasoned" Christians, we will bring others under deep condemnation).

A good way to illustrate. David seemed to commit much more serious sins than Saul, but God's favor continued with David? Why? When David sinned his heart was wounded because he grieved God's heart! He cared more about his RELATIONSHIP with God than the consequences of being caught. When Saul sinned he planned to continue in it until caught and confronted. He only gave an outward show of repentance as he continued in rebellion.

MY NOTE: I must say that these simple thoughts have brought me so much freedom in my life and how I see my passion for the Lord. And it has changed my eyes to see those new in the faith more as He does!

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THE SWEET PERFUME OF GOD'S PERSONALITY

The Father's affection and personality is a sweet perfume. We rest in the God who sees, feels, runs and embraces and kisses our heart. (Luke 15:20 - Prodigal Son)

The father SAW the prodigal son - God's view of His people.

The father FELT COMPASSION for the prodigal son - God's tenderness for His people.

The father RAN TOWARDS the prodigal son - God's action and initiative for His people.

The father EMBRACED (fell on) the prodigal son - God's affection for His people.

The father KISSED the prodigal son - God's desire for nearness with His people!!!

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Father God, thank You for Your amazing love and grace that covers me. Thank You that when I seem to fail You in so many ways, that You see my heart and know that I still have set the course to follow You. Thank You for seeing my heart. For loving me... .for forgiving me and allowing me to carry on in my walk to serve You more. May my heart always follow after you. Amen

Some thoughts from the Song of Solomon...

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Some revelations:

Jesus has a passionate affection for and enjoys His people.

In the Song of Solomon the beauty of Jesus as the Bridegroom King is revealed.

The fact that Jesus see's all believers as beautiful, even in our weakness.

There are many principles of growing love and a mature partnership with Jesus in the Song of Solomon.

The Brides journey began with longing for the kisses of His Word and ended up encountering Jesus in His holy jealous love.

Many times in the Song of Solomon there is phrasing about kisses on the mouth. This is a symbol of a loving, marriage relationship between God and His Bride (believers). It is a love like none other!

God is raising up a people who long for the kisses of God's Word!

The ultimate purpose and meaning for our life is to experience intimacy with God.

Some paradox ideas:

The Bride begins her journey with Grace. Song 1:5-6 I am dark (in heart), but lovely (to God)..... my own vineyard (heart) I have not kept. We are a sinful people, our heart is dark because we have not "kept it" by choosing to serve Him and grow closer to him.

But she has a desperate cry to have more of Him. Tell me, O You whom I love, where do You feed your flocks... she is looking for where to find Him.

In verse 16 the Bride begins to understand that she is beautiful and pleasant to Him.

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A few more principles to think on:

God loves unbelievers.

God enjoys and delights in young (immature) believers. God loves unbelievers, but he rejoices over believers. He delights in our repentance and our newness in Him. He smiles over us as we begin the growth process... long before we become mature!

God's enjoyment is not the same as His approval. We must remember that we make mistakes even as believers, we need His correcting. And He will correct us! He loves and enjoys us as we learn and grow and strive to be intimate and pure with Him... but we still do things He will not approve of.

God's discipline is not the same as His rejection! This is wonderful! He disciplines us... but He never rejects us if we continue to grow and mature and seek His face! When we find we are being disciplined... be joyful... because that means he has NOT given up on us!

God is grieved over the persistent sin of His people. Just as stated in Rev. 3:16-17 God hates luke-warmness! When we continue to sin we can NOT remain in His garden. We can not be His bride, His lover... God loves us so much, but His presence can not abide in the presence of sin!

Spiritual disciplines do not earn us favor with God. Prayer, fasting, meditation on His Word are ordained by God, but they do not gain us favor. God gives to us on the basis of our heart and how much we love and serve and seek His face!

Maturity allows us to receive more, Not to be LOVED more. God grants a greater measure of power to those who are mature in our relationship with Him... but He loves us all the same, regardless of where we are. His love is passionate, immeasurable, and amazing!!!

Ok, that is just a little of what has blessed me! Hope you enjoy this. I will share more soon.

My Beloved

2010-08-01T21:59:00.000-07:00

The past few weeks I have been involved in a study on the Song of Solomon at my church. The next few days I'm going to share some of my favorite parts. But for tonight, I want to share the lyrics of a wonderful song called My Beloved. It is such a wonderful and touching song...... enjoy it.

You're My Beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is My delight
Come away with Me My love

You're Beautiful to Me
So beautiful to Me

Under My mercy
Come and wait
Till we are standing face to face
I see no stain on you
My child

You're Beautiful to Me
So Beautiful to Me

I sing over you My song of peace
Cast all your care down at My feet
Come and find your rest in Me

I'll breathe My life inside of you
I'll bear you up on eagle's wings
And hide you in the shadow of My strength
I'll take you to My quiet waters
I'll restore your soul
Come rest in Me and be made whole

You're My beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is my delight
Come away with me my love

Scripture Share... More thoughts to come.

2010-07-27T21:48:00.000-07:00

Psalm 119:57-60

You are my portion, O Lord;

I have promised to obey your words.

I have sought your face with all my heart;

be gracious to me according to your promise.

I have considered my ways

And have turned my steps to your statutes.

I will hasten and not delay

To obey your commands.

Hiding In Thee...

2010-07-07T21:38:00.000-07:00

You have heard the phrase... I want to find a hole and crawl in it... Well that is how I have felt the last few days. So many little annoyances that add up to stress and discontentment in my life. I find myself easily annoyed with those I love and spend all my time with.

Sometimes I just want to silence the world, my mind, my heart... just have no noise of any kind. I can make my home totally quiet... but I am NO good at turning off my brain. I envy those who can just lay their head on their pillow and be out!

But just now, as I was telling my little ones and big ones good night.... the old hymn, "Hiding In Thee" came to mind. What a wonderful and precious thought. I do not need a hole in the ground. I have a Savior, a Father, a Lover of my soul... that I can hind in at any moment. Let me share the lyrics... it is worth a read!

O safe to the Rock that is higher than I,
My soul in its conflicts and sorrows would fly;
So sinful, so weary, Thine, Thine, would I be;
Thou blest “Rock of Ages,” I’m hiding in Thee.

Refrain

Hiding in Thee, hiding in Thee,
Thou blest “Rock of Ages,”
I’m hiding in Thee.

In the calm of the noontide, in sorrow’s lone hour,
In times when temptation casts o’er me its power;
In the tempests of life, on its wide, heaving sea,
Thou blest “Rock of Ages,” I’m hiding in Thee.

Refrain

How oft in the conflict, when pressed by the foe,
I have fled to my refuge and breathed out my woe;
How often, when trials like sea billows roll,
Have I hidden in Thee, O Thou Rock of my soul.

Refrain

Oh thank You, my ROCK OF AGES... that I may hide in You. That when I am in conflict, pressed by the enemy... I can run to you and "breathe out my woe". I'm so thankful... that You love and adore my praise. But I am blessed... that You love me so much... You are willing to listen to my moaning.

Praise You, Thank You, I Adore You...

People Listening!

2010-05-10T17:29:00.000-07:00

So tonight I am sitting at a local Starbucks waiting on one of my daughters to finish a Photography class! (She is getting really good by the way!)

But I have been in this store for a little over an hour and heard at least four conversations regarding God. Ok... I am trying not to be judgmental... truly I am... but folks are really confused and are being led astray! I'm not talking simple little "issues" that are different from denomination to denomination... I'm talking basic BIBLICAL accountability and such. Wow... you would have thought God was really this "mystic" being... a "fairy" that hangs out in our "earth"... well that was at least one explanation! Wow!

Father God... please, help me to hold fast to YOUR WORD and none other. Please let me know YOU so completely and intimately through your WORD and my time with you that I am not led astray or compromised by others "opinions". I know that there is ONE GOD, and ONE WAY... only through Your Son JESUS CHRIST and His shedding of blood for me! Help me when I read books, hear messages, etc.. that I not become a christian with a knowledge of catchy phrases and quotes... but of YOUR WORDS.

Ok, that's my "soap box" for tonight! Blessings to you all!

Cleaning Out The Temple..

2010-05-04T12:36:00.000-07:00

I have been reading a book by Tim Hill called Beyond the Mist. It's been a wonderful "read" about true revival.

The chapter I just finished made me take a look at my life. It was centered around what unfolded as Jesus saw the money changers, all all that was unholy in the temple. How they had the "dove" caged. I have reflected on my "temple" and what I had in it that wasn't supposed to be there.

I want, I long for a new stirring, a new revival, a new thing... beyond what I ever expected. And I know to do that... there needs to be a cleaning. Not that I have "deep, dark sins" anywhere... but even the small things... simple things like too much TV. Thoughts that should be crucified, and such that I know is not perfectly pleasing to God.

Why is it so easy to put the Holy Spirit in a cage, and limit His work in my life, in my family, in my church. Why is it so easy to let things of this "world" collect in my temple... so they are what I focus on instead of His voice, His face? I don't want that. I want more of HIM. I want a so much more...

We sang a new song at church on Sunday, The More I Seek You. I think it was made popular by Kari Jobe. It is my hearts desire today and always. I want to seek all that God has for me... all that He wants me to be and have... I want it all. Not just a little, not just a portion... I want it all. And if I have to clean house, daily, hourly, moment by moment.. I will.

Enjoy the song.

Do you have those times...

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in your life when it seems that everything falls apart? That regardless of what you do for the Lord, your family, your church... it is never enough or makes a real difference? That's where I have been the past few days.

But anyone who knows me well also know that music is my "word"... music is what can change my situation quicker than anything else. I love Christian music, especially worship music. I've always loved music.

Anyway... a few nights ago, I was particularly down. We had been informed of some upcoming changes with some of our dearest friends... changes that would carry into our church... and even our family because we love them so. I was so defeated... I felt alone and broken and confused. I was in tears when I clicked on KLOVE (my favorite online site for music) this song came on:

My load was lifted. Not gone, but such a reminder that God is right there with me. That I am never alone in my burden. That when my "everything" falls apart, it's just a season... but a season in which if I watch and allow Him to be... my God is strong and mighty! I just have to keep holding on!

Praise God for He is to always be praised!

Maundy Thursday

2010-04-01T21:16:00.000-07:00

Tonight we our family attended the Maundy Thursday service of a local church. Two years ago the pastor there introduced me to the Maundy Thursday services. I had never been a part of them before, especially not in the pentecostal church. I have to say that this Pastor is one of a kind... draws from so many aspects of church history and service types and melds them into his services.

Anyway.... once again this year, I was touched and moved so very deeply. Thinking of our Risen King, being a servant just hours before the longest, darkest period of his life... humbles me so much.

In this particular church, during the services, we still participate in a very lost, and misunderstood tradition of "foot washing". It was just three years ago when I experience this for the first time. I was not prepared for the waves of emotion that flooded me as women, whom I respect and love as mentor's... knelt beside me and washed MY feet. The prayers they prayed touched my deepest needs and that place of longing to be truly a part of these amazing women. Tonight was no different. And to add to this wonderful, humbling, time.... my 3 year old, wanted her "feet washed" as well. I couldn't tell where my tears ended and the bath of water began... and the prayers these wonderful women of God prayed over my daughter, this young tender little girl... well I have a great hope that our big and awesome God heard them all!

As we move into Friday.... and Saturday, with all the hustle and bustle of preparing for kids egg hunts, and family coming for lunch, and grocery shopping, etc.... I am determined to keep my focus on the Via Dolorosa... the way of suffering my Jesus walked. I will remember pain and suffering He withstood as soldiers mocked Him, beat Him, humiliated Him. I will remember the sorrow His mother felt. I will remember the pain of what she had always known would come to pass, now unfolding in front of her. I will remember the unfathomable feeling of abandonment... my Jesus felt as His Father, turned His face away. I will keep my focus on all that Jesus did for me. All He endured... for just me... as if there was no one else who needed it but me.

And Sunday... as all of my children are dressed in their new shoes and new clothes... I will focus... on the new body, the risen and transformed body, that Jesus now has. I will remember the joy of the women who found the tomb empty. I will remember the victory that is available to me and my life, because my Wonderful, Beautiful, Precious Jesus, ascended to hell and took hold of the keys. I will remember as we sing of MY REDEEMER.... that Jesus sits at the right hand of His Father. I will rejoice that the Sacrificial Lamb... is alive and waiting for me. I will Sing The Wondrous Story.... of the King of Kings, and Lord of Lords.

I will focus my life, my will, my desires, my entire being... to be more and more like my Lord, every day. I will love people, to look past their sin and disease, and love them where they are. I will do all I can do to "see" them as "Jesus" see's them... with compassion. And I will work daily, to live a humble life, as a servant to all. May I serve others in everyday, ordinary ways.... as I SERVE MY KING.

There is strength in the name of the Lord, there is power in the name of the Lord, there is hope in the name of the Lord..... blessed is he who comes, in the name of the LORD.

It's been a while...

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since I posted on this site. Life seems to keep me hopping!

God has blessed me so much. Every day is a treasure. I am learning to sit back and enjoy special moments of each day, especially with my children. Time goes by so quickly..... I blink and a year has passed. I don't want to let my life get so "complicated" that I forget to enjoy and savor those little moments with the ones I love.

God continually shows me how big and mighty He really is. There is a peace in my life that I have never known. Sometimes, maybe it's a bad thing, because I get complacent. But then again, maybe it's just that I am learning to rest in Him. I don't think I've ever been able to do that before.

Oh most Holy and Gracious God, thank You for Your blessings. May my eyes always be on You. And may Your peace always be found in my life, even in the midst of the craziness this world offers. Amen.

Thanks, give thanks...

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I love fall and Thanksgiving. I think it is my favorite time of year. We spend a few days at our family farm "Heritage Acres"... and just soak in God's beautiful creation! My kids love this place. They stay on the go from sun up to sun down. By the time night falls... they are worn out. We cook over the fire, ride 4 wheelers, play football, and other games. Aunts, uncles, cousins... four generations of them all come together that week. It is amazing.

We always have devotion before our meal on Thanksgiving day. This year, my mom shared. I love her and am so thankful for her! But as she spoke, I was overwhelmed with the reminder that our family has such a strong family line of christians. Generation after generation have believed in God, served Him, and lived their life by His Word.

I pray that I am able to leave this same legacy for my family. I pray that when my grandchildren's grandchildren gather for Thanksgiving... that they will recall their family always having a heritage of following the Lord. Of living for Him, serving Him, worshiping Him.

If you know me... you know worship is something that is very dear to my heart. I believe worship is the one thing I can offer up to the Lord at all times! And it is truly a good way to get you through the hard times as well. But I sense God calling me into a deeper sense of worship... really meeting with Him, on a personal one on one time. I've never been "great" at devotions and reading the Word. I love bible studies and have done some wonderful ones, but I think God is calling me to read His love letter to me. To know Him more intimately by just His words.

I hope to share and really get busy on my blogging during this excursion into His presence and His Word. Would you like to join me?

Knowing God...

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I have thought a lot about really knowing God. I mean I know about God, I know who He is, I know all the stories... but do I really KNOW Him?

Do I know Him intimately? Do I know every little aspect of who He is and do I still long for Him? Think about when you "fell in love" for the first time... or maybe the last time. Do you remember every aspect, every feature of his face. When you parted, do you remember the smell, the touch? Could you remember and think about every word spoken, every sweet word he whispered in your ear?

We should know our First Love this intimately. Do we remember His voice, His touch, His name, His face? Or has our love grown cold? Has our love affair with the Savior faded? Is it just routine? Is it just something that is "there"... but doesn't move us or make us feel?

I want to know my Savior this well. I want to make sure I find time every day to just sit in His presence... to memorize His Word, His voice, His touch. I want to remember every touch He has given my life. I want to be able to hear His voice, and know any time He calls.

How do we get to know Jesus this well? Spend time with Him. Read His love letters to You. Talk to Him. Adore Him. Worship Him. Lavish in His love for You. Rest in His arms. Taste His blessings.

I love the words of this song. Oh to know You in Your glory. Oh to bow before Your throne. Oh to rest here in Your presence. Oh to worship You alone.

Spend time with your Savior!

Those little blessings...

2009-09-05T08:05:00.000-07:00

Just a quick post this morning... it is a rainy, gloomy day! So my morning plans were cancelled.. which is ok! But I was up before everyone else and sat enjoying a cup of coffee. With my current schedule.. that was an unexpected blessing that I really needed. Thank you Lord!

Sometimes change is really hard....

2009-09-03T19:49:00.000-07:00

and that is an understatement lately.

Do you wonder sometimes why God doesn't allow us to see past our situation to what the outcome will be in the end? Yes, I know that is where FAITH comes in... but it would be really nice sometimes!

My husband is still out of work, not for lack of trying, goodness! I know he has sent application and resume' one after the other for weeks and months now. Had some great interviews, but for whatever reason... it just hasn't happened. But you know bills still come... so something had to change.

That change has been for me to return to the work world after 11 years. Yes, I have cried a bucket full.... but I know there must be a reason for all of this. Someday I'll look back and go... WOW... God was so amazing! And He is amazing. Even in this trial we seem to find ourselves in.

But some of strange blessings have emerged. At least I see them as blessings... lol. I see my children and even my husband realize how much I mean to them and how much it has meant for me to be home. My kids miss me and love on more a lot more! That is a blessing... for others to realize how much you mean to them. I work with two young ladies who are single mom's. I've already been able to speak some words of truth into their lives... and challenge (in a good way) what decisions they are making for themselves and their kids. I realize that I am capable to doing a lot more than I have been doing. (Now, I'm not sure that is a blessing, but working as much as I have, and still being a wife, mom, teacher, layperson, etc. I am doing more than before.)

So if you happen to read this post.... know that some days are bad. Some days are really good. Some days we question God, some days we just rest in knowing He is there. But EVERYday... He loves us and sees what is to come. He knows what we will face and how we will find blessings in each situation. So don't give up! Don't count yourself out. Get moving, get busy, do more... and know God is always in control!

It has been...

2009-08-24T22:27:00.000-07:00

a while since I posted. Life has become so very busy... and it just seems to bet more and more so. But I just wanted to say Hi and let everyone know I am alive.

School has started, and the kids already seem to be doing well. I can't believe how much they have all changed since last year. But most of the change has been good! :)

Well maybe I can update more later! Blessing to all. God is good and He never fails!

Finding peace...

2009-06-17T22:41:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I am way behind on my posting about my study on the Psalms of Ascent. It has been amazing so far, and I will post more soon! Beth Moore is just an amazing teacher!

But I do want to share something God is doing IN me... Last week was the Church of God Campmeeting here in Alabama. I went every night and was so very blessed!!!

As I've posted, dh is still out of work... it's been almost seven months now. I have found myself really fretting over it. I was almost consumed with what are we going to do? When will the phone ring? Stressing myself and probably my husband as well!

Well........... One night during the service, God really spoke to me. I realized, that my worry and stressing was hurting me and my relationship with my Creator! How can I trust His Word, and His promises, if I can't trust Him in this one area of my life. He gave me such a sweet peace. I mean.. I know we need a job. I know that we will still have to be careful and diligent in watching our money. But... I just have a peace, that when we really need it... there will be a job!

There is a old hymn... that I've been singing in my head... Peace, peace, wonderful peace, Coming down from the Father above.....

Thank you Lord, my Savior, my Provider, my Everthing.... thank You for speaking sweet peace to me!

Stepping Up! A journey....

2009-05-28T22:49:00.000-07:00

Tonight, I really began to get into my new Beth Moore study on the Psalms of Ascent! I'm excited.... can I say how much I love her teaching and what she brings out of the Word! Wow.

So here are a few thoughts that touched me tonight:

The first "Today's Treasure" was: "In my distress I cried unto the LORD, and He heard me." Psalm 120:1

Beth has asked that we spend at least a little bit of our day, face down in the floor, praying to our GOD. To demonstrate to Him reverence and surrender.... what a humbling thing for me.

I love this quote by John Calvin: .... I have been accustomed to calling this book (Psalm) 'An Anatomy of all the Parts of the Soul'.... meaning... there is every emotion we can possibly feel somewhere in this book! I think that is so true.... I've always loved Psalms because I can find one for every situation, every feeling, ever time in my life. One of them just "fits". Always.

Another great quote from the study was that God's first priority is a relationship with us... not just an emergency response. I love this, but was convicted of it too.... How often does my time in prayer and seeking MORE of Him, come when I need a 911 call? How much more does He long to have an intimate relationship with me... in the good and the bad!

So far the first Psalm we have walked through is Psalm 120... and it is just amazing how this one tonight really touched on something I'm dealing with in my life.

In this Psalm... David is calling out in distress... He is distressed about the terrible people he is living in the midst of. He is miserable because of some of the people who are causing him stress, etc. Beth points out, that we have people in our life on a regular basis who do not put a high priority on integrity... they play dirty and cause trouble. But part of our "ascent" to getting closer to God, and who He wants us to be... requires that we take the high road.

Is there anyone out there who agrees... the high road is sometimes REALLY hard!?! I know right now in my personal life, there is a family member who... well... you know what I mean. And I confess, I've found myself falling to that persons "way"... Lord, forgive me and help me to take the high road. I know that you will deal with the "yuck" in your own way.... I just have to give the same grace to this person as you would for me... even if it's really hard!

I also learned that Psalm 142: 1-2 gives me permission to give God my complaints... and tell Him my troubles. He already knows... but it's ok for me to hash it all out with Him... instead of duping it on someone else.

Ok... that's my thoughts for tonight.

Tomorrow... moving on to my FAVORITE Psalm of all times... Psalm 121!!!!!

God bless American... Land that I love...

2009-05-25T16:18:00.000-07:00

stand beside her and guide her, through the night with the light from above....

Today I am so very thankful for all those men and women who have served this country. To those who died, we will remember. To those who were wounded, we pray for you. For those who served with honor, we salute you.

Our country is still a great place. But we cry out for God to be merciful to us. As decisions and choices are being made that violate Hiw will and plan for us, may God be patient. I pray that those who truly serve the God of all Creation, would stand up and make a difference. Let your voice be heard, before it is silenced forever.

I am also so thankful to my Savior, Jesus Christ, for the ultimate sacrifice given for me and for all. My freedom in Christ is the most important freedom I have been given. I worship and adore you King Jesus. You are worthy of my praise forever.

This song is amazing!

2009-05-23T09:53:00.000-07:00