I have sat down several times to write, and ended up deleting it all.
I guess I feel like I say the same things over and over right now. And I guess I do.
We are still in a very hard place at the moment, but God continues to reveal Himself as forever faithful. I have learned more about trusting God in all things, than I ever have. Especially in my finances. Tithing when you can't see how you are going to make a house payment or a power bill is really hard. But through all of this, I have tithed. And I will say God has been good to us, and this has usually come through the hands of others who have just listened to His voice.
It has been a humbling experience. I do not like to ask for help. I do not like to accept help, even if I didn't ask. I have never been on this side of the fence, and it is really, really HARD! I will be brutally honest.... I like to have control of my life and what happens in it. The fact is.... I don't, and never really did. God has complete control. The only thing I can control, is releasing my life to Him and His plan. Forty something years... and this is still the hardest thing in the world.
One day at a time, one step at a time, and I continue to grow... and release my life into the Hands of my Father, who wants to give me good things.... whatever that may look like.